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Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
Bai Luo Yin was lying on his stomach working on his school assignments while, Gu Hai on the other, had already finished his earlier in the day. Having nothing better to do, he laid beside Bai Luo Yin and began to pester him.

Truth be told, Bai Luo Yin felt rather distraught and uneasy today. At first, such a simple mathematical problem became unsolvable even after he had tried various methods to figure the answer out.

In the midst of racking his brain for the right solution, he suddenly felt a hand teased rather seductively along the hem of his pants. Then it slipped in. That sly and mischievous hand travelled along his tailbone and made its way downward. It was like the fuzzy tip of a bristlegrass*1 sliding back and forth between the crevice of his buttocks. It was ticklish, so ticklish that it left goosebumps all over his body.

Suddenly, Bai Luo Yin tightly gripped Gu Hai’s once roaming hand and pulled it out and away. His brows stood high as he stared with a stern and severe gaze. “Do you want me to finish this assignment without delays or not? If you want me to, then leave me alone and don’t come too close.”

Gu Hai glanced to the side. He thought about it for a while, weighing the pros and cons in his head. Ultimately, as one could have easily expected, he obediently shifted and turned to the side.

Less than twenty minutes later, as if he was a moth attracted to the brilliant light, Gu Hai who once laid patiently to the side, squirmed toward Bai Luo and stuck to him again. Gu Hai poked him here and gently touched him there. After noticing that Bai Luo Yin did not have any reactions, his courage to continue gradually increased by tenfold. His moistened tongue started to do its evil deed above the surface of Bai Luo Yin’s neck.

Bai Luo Yin was going insane!

Letting out a sigh laced with frustration, he bit down on one side of his teeth, with the other side slightly parted, he closed his eyes. Once he opened them again, he suddenly grabbed his books and smashed it right on Gu Hai’s temple. He angrily got off the bed and went to the side table. As he propped himself down in the chair to do his assignments, he did not even bother to spare another glance at that shameless person on the bed.

Probably feeling bored out of his mind, Gu Hai brought his laptop on the bed and browsed around just to kill time.

By now, it was already eleven o'clock, almost midnight.

To his own dismay, Bai Luo Yin did not even finish half of his assignments yet.

Everyday at this time, he would have already thread his way into the bed sheet and fallen into a comfortable, deep sleep.

So that’s why Gu Hai was always at the side causing a commotion, was he also anxious?

Bai Luo Yin sneaked a quick glance at Gu Hai who was quietly facing the computer screen. Who knew what he was watching right now.

Out of the blue, Sun Jingwei’s remarks floated back into Bai Luo Yin’s head again. Since he returned until now, those words played back in his head countless times, refusing to be pushed away. These lingering thoughts were about the cause of Mrs. Gu’s death; about everything that Gu Hai’s had endured all those years……

Every single word was engraved deeply in his brain; so deep that he does not know how to just forget momentarily.

Bai Luo Yin lightly sighed.

He sighed so lightly that even he himself did not realize he had done it. But it was also because, he knew subconsciously that he did not want Gu Hai to see the differences in his mood.

By the time he finished all his assignments, it was already twelve o'clock. Bai Luo Yin stretched out his tired body and made his way to the bathroom for a refreshing bath. When he returned, he caught sight of Gu Hai staring attentively at him, eyes brimming with strangeness. But, Bai Luo Yin did not care about it and continued toward the bed. He comfortably dug his body into the quilt and let out a big yawn.

Just as he was about to turn the lights off, his hand was abruptly blocked.

“Get up,” said Gu Hai.

“What are you doing?” asked Bai Luo Yin, not amused.

“Get up!” Gu Hai’s tone was ravaged with seriousness as he looked squarely at the boy in front of him.

Bai Luo Yin was puzzled at this sudden demand, “I’m only sleeping a little later tonight. Do you really need to take it this far?”

“I told you get up. Did you not hear me?”

The sudden coldness in Gu Hai’s voice shocked Bai Luo Yin until he felt his scalp go numb. He realized that the situation was somewhat bad. To make it worse, based on Gu Hai’s tone, it did not seem like he was joking around either, but he could not think of why Gu Hai was being like this. In any case, he was certain that Sun Jingwei would not inform Gu Hai of their conversation.

Nevertheless, Bai Luo Yin sat up.

Gu Hai’s eyes narrowed and stared at him with such intensity, it was almost as if he wanted to gouge out all his internals and display it out in the open.

“Tell me, why are you in a bad mood?”

Bai Luo Yin’s eyes immediately swept toward Gu Hai, “Who said I was in a bad mood?”

“You’re still putting on an act with me!” said Gu Hai before his hand flew forward and gripped Bai Luo Yin’s neck. Suddenly with great force, he pressed him onto the bed and hatefully said, “Since class was dismissed until now, you’ve been fucking putting on an act with me the entire time! Aren’t you tired?”

Bai Luo Yin’s chest tightened with anticipation. Since when has the mask he worn to deceive Gu Hai became this ineffective already?

“You don’t want to tell me?”

Gu Hai’s hand suddenly stretched down into Bai Luo Yin’s pants. Taking advantage of the fact that he had caught him off guard, his finger poked Bai Luo Yin’s sensitive entranceway. When Bai Luo Yin tried to evade him, Gu Hai immediately chased right after and conveniently slipped his finger in. Within a moment, his finger was instantly wrapped tightly by the heated warmth inside.

“Are you going to tell me or not?” threatened Gu Hai.

Bai Luo Yin was not in the mood to argue with him. While he tried to pull his arm away, he said, “There’s nothing wrong to begin with, what do you want me to say?”

A rather devious smile emerged on Gu Hai’s lips. The position of his fingers were very accurate which allowed his sudden and rough attacks to hit at just the right spot. Every time he pushed them in, boundless nerves around that vital spot generated electrical sparks and dispersed throughout Bai Luo Yin’s burning body.

Bai Luo Yin’s body then arched forward in excitement as he let out an unbearable moan.

Gu Hai’s tongue danced in a rather gaudy circle at the side of his own lips before giving it a lick. With eyes drunken in lust, he let an obscene word sit scrupulously at the tip of his tongue and as it flowed out of his mouth, his voice was laced with a suave and smooth tone.


As that word entered his ear, Bai Luo Yin felt as though someone had given him a big slap in the face. In that moment, the swelling imprints of those five fingers had already kissed his face a shade of red. He tried with all his might to pull Gu Hai’s devilish hand away, however, in effect, he assisted in pushing those fingers in instead.

Every time Bai Luo Yin fought to get rid of him, Gu Hai’s other hand would press randomly around his bulge. In the end, Bai Luo Yin’s strength was nearly depleted, leaving only enough energy for him to pant rapidly, desperately.

The corner of Gu Hai’s lips curved, “Gee……do you want it that bad?”

Bai Luo Yin tightly closed his eyes. Perhaps, this was the best way to forget it.

A second later, Gu Hai flipped Bai Luo Yin’s body over. In this position, he can look directly at his sweaty yet handsome face.

From the front, he roughly thrust in.

The searing pain was followed by an insurmountable pleasure and soon after, the feeling of shame was accompanied by intense sexual desires. Little by little, Bai Luo Yin’s head became paralyzed. Suddenly, he hooked his arms around the back of Gu Hai’s head and forcibly pressed it down toward his own face. In an extremely crazy and desperate manner, he nibbled and bit Gu Hai’s sweet lips until traces of blood flowed out along the corner of his lips. Ever after their lips pulled apart, unwillingly, a single strand of saliva left their connection in tact.

By this time, Gu Hai could already feel the overheated passion that teased and provoked his aching body all the way to its boiling point. He then spread and propped both of Bai Luo Yin’s long straightened and delectable legs on his own shoulder. He grabbed Bai Luo Yin’s smooth waist and pulled him roughly toward himself.

Every time he ruthlessly thrust in, every inch of his member would enter all the way to the root, sparing not even a centimeter between them. And when he pulled out completely, there was an increase of noises, similar to that of a buzz or hum, circulating through his ear*2, uninterruptedly.

Gu Hai’s hand snaked toward Bai Luo Yin’s erected member, wrapped around it and rubbed it at a very high frequency. With much skill, he used his fingertip to stop over at the tip, scratching and teasing it as he pleased. The indulgence of this gratifying sensation alone caused the nerves in Bai Luo Yin’s waist to explode, sending waves upon waves of electric current unfurling throughout his body. In that moment, his waist trembled, his thighs tingled and his toes twitched.

“Baby, does it feel good being fuck by your hubby?”

Bai Luo Yin grabbed a pillow and pressed it firmly on his own face. The tone of his burning breaths sounded exceptionally passionate as it travelled through the cotton wads and dispersed in the air around them.

Finding that pillow rather despicable, Gu Hai tore it off of Bai Luo Yin’s face revealing his hot and heavy breaths, along with the lewd and irrepressible moan that slipped out from within him tightened lips. Struggling to cope with the irresistible pleasure that set ablaze all of his reasoning, Bai Luo Yin’s lips only managed to moan out a vague yet seductive moan: “……it feels good……”

After a burst of violent thrusts on the bed, there was a short period of tranquility that befell the room.

Just a moment ago, Gu Hai felt lost and disoriented as he rose to cloud nine but now that his head has sobered up, he once again transformed from a brave and fierce man into a nagging woman. He leaned close in front of Bai Luo Yin and continued to ask in details.

“Exactly what is the reason for your bad mood?”

Bai Luo Yin collapsed and opened his earthen eyes, “Why do you still remember this huh?”

“If you don’t say it, I won’t be at ease.”

“There’s really nothing. You’re just being too overly sensitive,” said Bai Luo Yin lazily, “I sat in the teacher’s office for two whole classes and typed on the computer the entire time, how can my complexion look good?”

Gu Hai paused for a while, “You’re not lying to me?”

Letting out a long sigh, Bai Luo Yin coldly said, “If you keep on going on like that again, I’ll ignore you.”

Those words left a very deep and formidable impression on Gu Hai. Right after hearing it, he immediately behaved himself.


On Saturday, without Gu Hai’s knowledge, Bai Luo Yin went to his house again. This time around, Jiang Yuan was still alone in the house.

When she opened the door and saw Bai Luo Yin standing out there in front of her, Jiang Yuan could not help but to be surprised.


“I have something to ask you.”

Jiang Yuan’s complexion changed; her head somewhat confused, even more, she was also a bit nervous. However, when she thought about it again for a few seconds, she has not done anything recently. With that in mind, she felt relief and pulled Bai Luo Yin into the house.

“What do you need mom for?”

Even though hearing the word ‘mom’ was somewhat harsh on his ears, Bai Luo Yin was already not in the mood to entangled himself in these small matters.

“It’s about you and Gu Wei Ting.”

Jiang Yuan laughed embarrassingly, “Ah this, then let me go get you a glass of fruit juice. We can chat slowly.”

Bai Luo Yin took advantage of this moment to look the living room up and down. Every piece of furniture has a feeling of familiarity to each other as though they all came from the same time. Although it was not old fashion, it still gave off a feeling of solemness. This kind of solemn style was not something that Jiang Yuan was fond of. The arrangement of everything, from the big sofa, the bookcase, to the small tea set and hanging ornaments; none of these were in accordance with Jiang Yuan’s personal taste. Or perhaps it was better to say, none of those things belonged to her.

Jiang Yuan sat in front of Bai Luo Yin and looked at him. She smiled warmly and said, “Why are you suddenly interested in me and Mr. Gu?”

But rather, Bai Luo Yin did not answer her question and instead opened his mouth to ask: “Why didn’t you renovate this room?”

“Renovate?” Jiang Yuan was surprised at this firm statement, “Why do I need to renovate it? The furniture here are all really expensive. I don’t even have the will to throw a piece away.”

“You can store them all in a warehouse or find a place to set them up.”

There was silence on Jiang Yuan’s face for a while before she asked, “Why did you suddenly ask me this?”

“I just think that, living in a place where other people used to be warm and affectionate to each other, doesn’t really conform with your character. Or is it that, you like the feeling of possessing other people’s belongings?”

Jiang Yuan could not help but to laugh. Even though, she laughed out loud, it seemed to be hidden with disappointment and frustration. There was no happiness mingling with the sound of her voice.

It was not very often that Bai Luo Yin saw this kind of expression on Jiang Yuan’s face. In his impression of her, Jiang Yuan’s expressions are always the same. Beside smiling when pleased with herself, or roaring in frustration, it was really rare of her to have any sort of meaningful or deep expressions.

“I had wanted to change it once, but after changing it, this will still be someone’s house. Even if I change all the furniture, tear down the floors and walls, the outcome will still be the same. Whoever’s room will still be their room. There are already names assigned to all the rooms. I can only go in and clean up, I don’t have the right to occupy it.”

“Then why don’t you move out? Base on his abilities, finding a new place for the two of you wouldn’t be so complicated right?”

“If we move, he will be unwilling to return to the new house since he’s already reluctant to leave here.”

Bai Luo Yin’s head was riddled with bewilderment, “Then, why don’t you comply with the military rule and follow him to the army base?”

“What kind of status do you think I should have to enter the army base together with him? Do you think that by just having a marriage certificate, I can openly and honorably face those people who, behind my back, point their fingers in blame at me?”

“It is all worth it for you?”

“I love him.”

When those words came out from Jiang Yuan’s mouth, Bai Luo Yin thought that it was rather ridiculous. But when he thought about it more carefully, he felt that there was nothing ridiculous about it at all.

If he and Gu Hai, two guys, could arrive at this point today, how can this be that beyond belief?

“Tell me about yours and his story during that time.”


Translator’s Note:

*1 bristlegrass – binomial name 'Setaria viridis’ The name is derived from the word seta, meaning “bristle” or “hair”, which refers to the bristly spikelets. The genus includes over 100 species distributed in many tropical and temperate regions around the world, and members are commonly known as foxtail or bristle grasses.

*2 the blood vessels in your ears can be constricted, which is made more intense normally with a more intense orgasm

Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
Sun Jingwei never imagined that Bai Luo Yin would invite him out for a meeting. In regard to this boy, he only had one mental note of him. That is, Sun Jingwei had always been somewhat curious about him as a person. He himself, seldom have any contact with Jiang Yuan but from what little he does know, she was a very intelligent woman. And, everything else that he knew about Bai Luo Yin, originated from Gu Wei Ting whom had spoken of him a few times.

After they say down, it was Sun Jingwei who, nevertheless, spoke first.

“Are classes tiring?”

“It’s okay.”

Sun Jingwei smiled softly before taking a sip of the cup of tea in his hand.

“My daughter is a third year in middle school, all day long she’s always busy with her endless pile of school assignments.”

Bai Luo Yin faintly laughed: ”She’s in the graduating class, so that’s unavoidable.”

Sung Jing Wei noticed that Bai Luo Yin’s temper is somewhat more calm and gently than Gu Hai. And, compared to other boys in his age range, he seemed even more earnest and passionate.

“I’ve been in the army for a long time so, the people that I’ve interacted with are mostly from the army. We all say and do things in a very swift and decisive manner, that finding an opportunity to sit down and calmly chat is very rare so I’m not very good at conversing with people. Especially with kids around your age, there’s a huge discrepancy between yours and our way of thinking. If I’ve said something does not sound pleasant to you, I do hope you can pardon me.”

“Uncle Sun, you’re too polite. You’re an elder, I should have been the one to say those words.”

Sun Jingwei laughed out loud in an almost thunderous sound as he patted Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder and said, “Let’s not play around, deceiving each other anymore. You didn’t come looking for me just to have a chat right?”

Straightening himself up, Bai Luo Yin looked sternly at Sun Jingwei, eyes shining rather brightly.

“Yes! There are some things that I wanted to understand through you.”

Those words piqued Sun Jingwei already curious mind as he interestingly looked at Bai Luo Yin, “What do you want to understand through me? Regarding who? Is it the General?”

Bai Luo Yin paused briefly, carefully processing through his thoughts, “The General’s late wife.”

Once those words escaped his lips, it could not be taken back. This statement was spoken in such a firm and strong tone that the atmosphere around them became somewhat heavy, even causing Sun Jingwei’s expression to be riddled with seriousness. His eyes were instantaneously touched with a type of gloominess that beckoned to stay.

“It’s about Gu Hai’s mother,” Bai Luo Yin repeated once again; his voice carried an even more earnest tone when Gu Hai’s name swiftly broke free.

Sun Jingwei remained silent for a few more seconds, clearly struck with surprise before he awkwardly smiled. “What made you want to ask about this?”

Bai Luo Yin calmly replied back: “I believe that there exists a huge misunderstanding between Gu Hai and his father. And that misunderstanding lies in his mother. Deep in Gu Hai’s heart, there’s a direct relationship between his father and his mother’s death. I want to clarify Gu Hai’s mother died. I want to do all I can, to help Gu Hai get rid of those painful memories and make him acknowledge his own father once more.”

A small bit of frustration swamped Sun Jingwei’s face, however, as he looked at Bai Luo Yin dead in the eyes; those eyes unyielding eyes that spoke of it own accord. In that moment, he could not help but to feel admiration and appreciation toward the youth before him.

“You’re very clever. Choosing such a provocative reason to try and obtain information from me. Your way of thinking is very beautiful, however, even though I sympathize with you, there’s not much I can do to help. My hands are tied as it is and I only know so much. I’ve already talked about this with Xiao Hai countless times, but he simply does not believe me at all. I can’t find anymore evidence to prove that the General is innocent. So, I advise you to abandon this idea. Don’t let this small matter destroy the peaceful relationship between you two brothers.”

“Your words and my words weigh differently in his heart. If I believe that his father is innocent, then I can also talk to him and make him believe that his father is innocent.”

Bai Luo Yin’s statement was rich with substance, powerful and resonating. It was completely unlike an exaggerated opinion of a child that did not know his own abilities. This child clearly knew the immensity of heaven and earth when he allowed those spirited words to swim out mouth.

With the way spoke, it sounded more like a wise man’s deep and subtle way of thinking. Sun Jing Wei’s eyes slightly widened as he restrained the movements of his pupils. The expression that crawled unmistakably into his eyes carried with it, a faint but brightly lit astonishment. Now, he better understood why Bai Luo Yin was able to leave such a deep impression in Gu Wei Ting’s mind when they had first met.

“Since you wanted to know these things, why don’t you just ask Xiao Hai directly? Everything that I know, he also knows. Whether you ask me or ask him, it would still be the same.”

“Before I can convince myself, I don’t want him to know what I am doing.”

Sun Jingwei took a deep breath, his face now revelled with a smile, as if he had come to term with this prospect. “Then, that’s good. I will tell you once more. In any case, you are also part of the General’s family. This event happened a long time ago, it’s really not much of a secret anymore.”

In that moment, Bai Luo Yin once unperturbed mind suddenly became somewhat nervous, even tense as if a stabbing sensation was eating into his heart, trying to stop it from pumping. Perhaps, it was because Sun Jingwei was going to once again uncover Gu Hai’s deeply engraved wound. The only difference was, this time around, it was Bai Luo Yin, himself, who wanted to replace Gu Hai and experience those unbearable pain again.

“This situation happened three years ago. At that time, the General was in charge of overseeing the engineering of a weapon research and development project. Later on, this military intelligence was discreetly inquired by a foreign military industry magnate. They sent over people to negotiate and wanted the General to sell this secret military information to them. They even went through the painstaking task of listing all kinds of rather generous conditions. But, the General remained unmoved under their subornation.

Afterwards, the General decided to personally delivered this secret military information, so in turn, this brought about the design of two routes, specifically made to throw those overbearing foreign magnate off. Among two vehicles, one of them would be tasked with transporting the fake documents. But the thing was, no one knew, not even the military officers that were instructed to escort those documents were clueless and unaware. Everyone believed that, that particular vehicle contained the genuine documents.

However, in reality, the real secret military information was held tightly within the General’s palm. He had worn civilian’s clothes and taken a taxi to deliver it. As the proverb says, the most dangerous place, is the safest place, so in this way, no one suspected that taxi. The General effortlessly delivered the secret military information to a safe and secure location. But, the other vehicle met with a mishap. It came to no surprise to the General since he had earlier expected it to happen. He had already guessed that the foreign military industry magnate would not give up or admit failure, so that gave him more reasons to designed these two routes for the vehicles to travel through.

However, what the General had absolutely never thought of was that, his wife, madam Gu, had unexpectedly boarded that vehicle, Moreover, she had sustained serious injuries during the midst of the vicious firefight. She was immediately sent to the hospital but sadly, before she arrived, her breath was gone and she passed away.

At that time, Xiao Hai was only fourteen years old, he simply did not believe the news of his mother’s death. On top of it all, at the same time, there were all kinds of rumors going on within the military compound. All of which concerned your mother and the General’s relationship. These things added on heavily to the suspicion that Xiao Hai already bore in mind. He strongly believed that his mother should have not shown up in that vehicle and even worse, everything that happened was neatly arranged by the General. All of it which was for the sake of assuring the General and your mother would be together without any hindrance. That was how this malicious plan came about and caused the death of his wife.”

Listening to everything up to this point, Bai Luo Yin was able to completely understand the reason for why Gu Hai instantly knew that he was Jiang Yuan’s son. How he could react and go out of control like that; how he could say those hurtful words.*1

As it turns out, in his head, there was already a screening of him and Jiang Yuan as enemies. Two people that cannot live under the same sky, everything for him was already absolutely irreconcilable.

“How did his mother learn of this information? Also, how was she able to catch up with the vehicle so quickly afterwards? Wasn’t the vehicle escorting the secret military information travelling in an especially well designed path? How could she so easily discover the path?”

Bai Luo Yin also harbored some suspicions of his own.

“The fact is, many of us were also perplexed by this sequence of event, since as you can clearly see yourself, it was and is still hard to understand. We’ve searched through many clues and exhausted all sources but all was to no avail. I, too, cannot help but to think of it in this way, perhaps during that time, madam Gu suddenly had a telepathic moment with the General and felt that he had met with danger, and quickly rushed out to assist him. Of course, I know that this reason is unreliable, simply absurd, but no matter how much it does not make sense, I believe wholeheartedly that the General is innocent. I can even vouch with my own head. This matter was definitely not something that the General had planned in advance.”

The complexion on Bai Luo Yin’s handsomely constructed face stiffened with coldness and the tone of his voice bore nothing but harshness, “But your head was not enough to make Gu Hai’s thoughts weaken. You can’t even convince me.”

All of a sudden, Sun Jingwei forced a smile as he laughed bitterly, “This was something that I had just said to you a moment ago. Though I sympathize with you, there’s not much I can do to help, my hands are tied. Even if I were to tell you, you would still harbor a suspicious mentality. So, this situation can only be set aside like this. I hope there will come a day, Xiao Hai will suddenly realize, will suddenly understand the General’s hardships. Perhaps, this riddle will involuntary undo itself.”

Bai Luo Yin’s mindset, even his heart became heavy, until Sun Jingwei took his leave.

It was as if the entire world was crowded inside that small throbbing muscle within his chest. He now knew, the cruel and painful memories that Gu Hai had suffered alone in.

He hastily rushed back to school.

Fortunately, classes had not been dismissed yet and the ‘good’ thing was, Bai Luo Yin merely skipped two classes and nothing more. Standing at the classroom’s doorway, Bai Luo Yin took several deep breaths. Trying his best to suppress the heaviness in his chest all at once, before he nonchalantly walked in as if nothing had happened.

“What did the teacher in charge of the class want with you?”

“Oh, nothing in particular. She just wanted me to write a report.”

The dismissal bell rung loudly throughout the school indicating the end of the school day which every students always longed for.

Gu Hai gathered his belongings while continuing to ask: “What report?”

“Wasn’t there a consensus that our class was selected along with others as outstanding? We need a report introducing the fundamental circumstances of our class. The teacher thought that my writing style is pretty good, so she thought that it was possible for me to do it for her instead.”

Gloominess attacked Gu Hai’s face, he didn’t even bother to try and refrain himself from cursing: “Does she think her student is stupid donkey huh? Something that she can just order around as she pleases?!”

Bai Luo Yin remained silent, not saying anything. He simply picked up his schoolbag, followed Gu Hai and walked out together.

While they walked, Gu Hai was still complaining, “In the future, if she asks you to do something for her again, you shouldn’t do it.”

“Why?” Bai Luo Yin thought that Gu Hai took too much care in this.

Gu Hai, on the contrary, was not in a good mood at all, “You’re asking why? You wrote that thing for her, yet the other teachers don’t even know, so they’d still make you complete their assignments on time.”

“It’s alright. I write really quick anyways. I can just make up for it later and it’ll be fine.”

“Doesn’t making up your assignments mean you have to spend more time and effort huh? There’s not a lot of time after school as it is, now those assignments are just going to occupy half that time.”

Due to the fact that there were other students walking in front of and behind them, Gu Hai did not shamelessly say:

If you spend another half an hour on an assignment, that’s half an hour less we get to be intimate with each other. Anything or anyone that tries to occupy our time on the bed, will never be spare!

Looking at Gu Hai’s unwillingness to spare anyone or listen to reasons, Bai Luo Yin could not help but to reply back, “Can you stop wasting time? You sound just like a bunch of nagging girls.”

“Did you just say I’m a nagging girl again huh?”

Gu Hai had every intention to use his own skillful yet murderous hands to stealthily jab Bai Luo Yin’s penis, but Bai Luo Yin’s reaction was a lot swifter than his. Bai Luo Yin jetted off ahead, out of that mischievous boy’s grip.

As he ran away at full speed, he would turn around occasionally to look at Gu Hai’s somewhat surprise appearance. While there was a slight pout on Gu Hai’s disapproving lip, Bai Luo Yin himself wore a beautiful cheery smile. Like a pouncing wolf, Gu Hai urgently leaped forward several times, chasing after him.

On the road, the two talked and laughed cheerfully, enjoying their moments together. Today, Gu Hai feigned laziness and bluntly said that wanted to eat out. This certainly brightened Bai Luo Yin’s entire face causing him to immediately become excited.


In reality, he did not have an appetite at all.

Right now, no matter what he was given, it would all taste the same. However, in order to make sure Gu Hai could not see through him, he stubbornly shoved three big bowls of rice, one after the other, into his mouth. Afterward, he even bought a big pile of snacks.

As they continued on the road, he happily ate, to suppress his surging emotions.
[info title="Translator's clarification" icon="info-circle"]*1 Yin Zi is referring to when he and Gu Hai found out about Jiang Yuan’s relationship to Yin Zi and how Gu Hai was pissed off yet still he was unable to understood why at that time.[/info]

Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
On the road back home, Gu Hai casually asked Bai Luo Yin: “What do you want to eat?”

Bai Luo Yin thought about it for awhile, but even then, nothing came to mind. So he simply blurted out, “Anything is fine!”

“Do you want to eat noodles?”

A sign of distress colored Bai Luo Yin’s face. His brows scrunched together, creating wrinkles that spoke of his silent disapproval, “Can’t we eat something different? Since I moved back to your place, nine out of ten days, we’ve been eating noodles.”

Gu Hai was happily tapping his hand on the steering wheel rhythmically. He quickly glanced at Bai Luo Yin with a smile brushing gently around the corner of his lips: “This time it’s different. Before, we’ve always bought instant noodles and cook it as is, but this time, I will personally knead and roll the dough.”

Bai Luo Yin eyes slightly widen before he painfully casted them toward the car’s floor mate before shutting them, then after what seemed like the longest time, he reopened his eyes again.

“How about we just buy the instant noodles instead?”

Taking another glance at Bai Luo Yin somewhat pleading appearance, Gu Hai remained unperturbed and insisted on keeping up with his previous statement. Bai Luo Yin simply sighs, caving in since he didn’t want to attack or wound Gu Hai’s enthusiasm. If he had known earlier that it was going to be like this, he would have given Gu Hai a clear cut and precise answer when he has asked him what he wanted to eat a moment ago.

I want to eat this and that is what I should’ve said. That way, it would’ve cut off all his evil intents.

Just as the two arrive home, the position of the sun clearly indicated that it was time for lunch. A sweet aroma of freshly cook food floated around in the hallway toward their apartment. Simply sniffing other people’s home cooked meals made Bai Luo Yin a bit reluctant to enter the front door of their apartment.

Gu Hai, on the other hand, was brimming with joy and expectations as he entered the kitchen.

While waiting for food to be prepared, Bai Luo Yin sat in the living room, playing some games on the computer. He glanced towards the kitchen when he heard loud noises of inconceivable imagination travelled from the kitchen into his now tingling ears. He could not help but feel terrified as he listened to those noises continue to pervade the apartment. From time to time, he wanted to sneak toward the kitchen to take a quick look, afraid that Gu Hai was not being careful and had already stabbed himself in the neck with the vegetable knife.

“Yin Zi!”

Hearing Gu Hai called out for him, Bai Luo Yin quickly put his laptop down and walked toward the kitchen a bit anxious.

The door in front of him was closed which urged Bai Luo Yin to push it open. With just one look, he was immediately scared. His skin felt as though it wanted to run off in another direction.

The sink, the cutting board, the stove, the cabinet of plates……everything was all covered with flour. Gu Hai’s clothes, shoes, neck, face……were all horrendously painted with white flour. Only the bowl that ‘supposedly’ contained the flour was not covered in flour or showed sign that it once had any substance in it.

“You……what did you call me for?” his voice faltered as he turned to look at Gu Hai.

Gu Hai swayed both of his big hands back and forth, displaying the two well kneaded dough, that looked as though it was about to swallow his hands whole. Beaming with happiness, he happily said: “I wanted you to have a look. I’ve kneaded and brought the dough to life.”

Bai Luo Yin, “………”

By the time Bai Luo Yin returned to the kitchen again, Gu Hai had already started to cook the noodles. Looking at the remaining noodles on the kitchen counter, Bai Luo Yin cannot help but to be surprise at the final outcome. Although it was a little thick, it really was long and stringy. His eyes brightened up with invisible sparks, revealing the pleasantness that settled on his face.

Wow! It’s really noodles! It’s not starchy it’s not lumpy, it’s not dough……it’s really noodles!

Bai Luo Yin picked up a string and pinched it in half between the tip of his fingers.

Gu Hai coldly explained: “What are you foolishly doing? Why are holding the noodles like that?”

“Seriously, is there really a particular way to hold noodles huh?” retorted Bai Luo Yin unconvinced, “Every time I’ve seen Aunt Zou holding it, she’s very casual about it and even then, it doesn’t break!”

Gu Hai’s sharp tiger eyes was trenched with a raging wild fire as he glared at him, “In the eyes of onlookers like you, Aunt Zou is just casually holding them, only experienced and talented people like us, understand the way to hold them! Do you see? This is the right way to hold the noodles.”

After saying that, he gently put one strand of noodle in the palm of his hand, then with utmost care, he placed it in the pan. Unexpectedly, as he placed one end of the noodle into the pan, the other end was still stuck to his palm. The noodle was shorter than twenty centimeters, yet it still broke apart in the middle.

Gu Hai’s face became slightly embarrassed.

Seeing his face like that, Bai Luo Yin slapped his shoulder, “I’ll pretend I didn’t see anything.”

Having said that, he walked out of the kitchen.

Behind him, Gu Hai shouted, “Hey! Come back here, that demonstration just now was not good!”

The family’s downstairs meal smells really good……

The second he shut the windows, Bai Luo Yin almost jumped out of the window.

Ten minutes passed by once more. Guessing that it was more or less done, Bai Luo Yin knocked on the kitchen door again, “Done yet?”

Inside, Gu Hai was frantically coughing, so he didn’t hear the loud knocks on the door at all.

Not hearing any reply, Bai Luo Yin pushed the door open himself.

A thick cloud of smoke was surging around inside and Gu Hai, himself, was practically hidden within it. He stood in front of the gas stove with the handle of the frying pan tightly in one hand, while waving around a big ladle in the other. The fire beneath the pan has become a raging flare, leaving a black semi burnt stain on the front of Gu Hai’s clothes.

“What are you doing?” Bai Luo Yin squeezed out between coughs as the smoke pulled him into the midst of it.

Gu Hai looked as though he didn’t hear him and continued to boldly fry the black substance in the pan.

Is it possible that he’s making the sauce for it?

Bai Luo Yin pondered on this, while at the same time, looked around for the noodles. After searching for quite a while, he still could not find it.

Finally, he found a small bowl of closely packed lumpy dough. There were small and big ones; the big ones were the size of a thumb while the small ones were only as big as a fingernail. There was no need to further explanations, these were definitely the noodles that Gu Hai had cooked.

“I’ve changed my mind!” exclaimed Gu Hai excitedly as he gave Bai Luo Yin a quick glimpse. His eyes were bursting with enthusiasm as if a breath of new life has been inserted into him.

It was only then that Bai Luo Yin discovered that Gu Hai’s entire face was blackened and a small section of his eyebrows were missing.

“Didn’t you say you were tired of eating noodles? Today, we’re not going to eat noodles. Instead, we’ll be eating fried dumpling knots*1!”

Bai Luo Yin, “………”

The sun has finally decided to rest as it made way for the moon to take its place up high in the unending heaven. The faint lingering lilac sky finally faded into the shadows before it was under siege by stars that seemed to lighten the night. This never-ending darkness crawled into their silent place and consumed them under its thick blanket.

In this cold and awe-inspiring darkness, Bai Luo Yin awoken with drowsy eyes to find Gu Hai leaning against the headboard of the bed, smoking a cigarette. The side of his grave and stern face was lit up by a brilliant halo of light casted from the nightstand beside the bed. Although a forbidding air painted his face, the light upon in revealed an ineffable serenity that seek to remain unspoken. The ashtray sitting soundlessly on the short bedside cabinet was piled up in a high mountain of cigarette stubs.

Who knew how long he has been awakened.

Bai Luo Yin remembered clearly that they had lie down to sleep together. And even before they had fallen asleep, Gu Hai’s face was kissed with a roguish and mischievous smile which spoke of sexual innuendos.

Now, he has completely changed into another person.

Sensing the person beside him moving around, Gu Hai pinched the cigarette stub, putting it out. He turned his head slightly to the side and let his eyes fall on Bai Luo Yin’s form. “You’ve awaken?”

“You didn’t sleep all along?”

Gu Hai faintly said: “No, I just woke up a moment ago.”

Bai Luo Yin dragged his sleepy body back, sat up and leaned against the headboard. He extended his hand, hinting to Gu Hai, “Give me one.”

“Don’t smoke. If you do, you won’t be able to sleep afterwards.”

Bai Luo Yin rolled his eyes then shot Gu Hai a quick glance, “Then, why are you still smoking?”

“I’m addicted.”

Not listening to a single word he said, Bai Luo Yin crossed the upper portion of his body over Gu Hai’s lap. With his buttocks sticking up in the air, he stretched his hand over toward the bedside cabinet and grab a cigarette.

Taking advantage of this grand opportunity, Gu Hai groped Bai Luo Yin’s butt, feeling the firm yet supple muscle. Bai Luo Yin on the other hand, was indifferent to it, seeming as though he didn’t care about this sexual endeavor. After grabbing the cigarette, he lit it up and blew smoke out from the side of his mouth.

“What are you thinking about?” ask Bai Luo Yin, stealing a side glance at him.

Lightly closing his eyes, an indecent smile wormed its way onto the corners of Gu Hai’s lips. “Say, why did the noodles break when it was cooked?”

Bai Luo Yin narrowed his earthen eyes at Gu Hai, “The reason you’re not sleeping is because you’re thinking about this in the middle of the night?”

Gu Hai remained silent, not saying anything.

The room sunk into a silent tranquility. And, this looming silence was like a poison for them, in that void of sound, the unknown direction of their conversation was laid bare.

Any moment now the cigarette was quickly going to die out, and only then did Bai Luo Yin opened his mouth and asked., “Are you thinking about your mom?”

Under that gleaming reflections of light beneath the nightstand, Gu Hai once roaming pupils, sorrowfully became stagnant. It was as if, a cloud of misty haze had suddenly frozen up, to the point that even the temperature surrounding him declined to an unnatural degree.

Bai Luo Yin nipped the stub of the cigarette, and faintly said: “I’ve discovered, when you’re really in pain, you always like to endure it by yourself. However, only until you aren’t suffering anymore, you’ll come and pretend to be pitiful in front of me.”

Gu Hai’s entire body stiffened, refusing to budge.

In that silent and unwavering moment, Bai Luo Yin’s arms stretched over. He wanted to, with all his heart, to pull and take Gu Hai into his arms to embrace him, but Gu Hai’s body hardened with much effort, refusing to be held.

In truth, he was unable to move his body.

In the end, Bai Luo Yin, himself, slightly leaned toward Gu Hai before he took the initiative to face Gu Hai’s thin lips and kissed it.

His warm lips were met with coldness and as he parted his lips, a slight chill pervaded between their lips and teeth.

There was no need for anything to be spoken or be disclosed between them, Bai Luo Yin knew all along that Gu Hai had already sat alone for a really…really long time, in this once silent room.

He held Gu Hai tightly, firmly, almost desperately in his arm while using his own thin lips to pass to him, all the warmth that was circulating within his own breath, within his own body. He let this warm kiss continue until Gu Hai’s body gradually relaxed, and willingly let all the weight from his body press on him.

Bai Luo Yin’s back kissed the cool bed sheet while his chest stitched tightly with Gu Hai’s.

With his arms still wrapped strongly on Gu Hai’s chilled body, Bai Luo Yin’s fingers almost met each other around his firm back, almost desperately digging into him as if to absorb him into his own body.

The entanglement of emotions that holed up in Bai Luo Yin’s tightened chest, too, gradually restore its normality.

The last remaining glimmer of light from the nightstand was blotted out by total darkness as the two nakedly hugged each other. After what seemed like an eternity well needed, Bai Luo Yin’s hand moved towards the top of Gu Hai’s head. His trembling hand, gently caressed and stroke Gu Hai’s hair.

Something like this was not what Bai Luo Yin was used to, that is, this seldom tenderness.

“I don’t know what I should say to you. You already know, I’m not really good with words.”

Gu Hai lazily smiled and warmly looked at Bai Luo Yin with eyes drowned in the colors that represented love and affection.

“Then, can’t you just break that rule for once and say something nice to me?”

Bai Luo Yin asked seriously, “What do you want to hear?”

With that, Gu Hai pretended to think about it for a while before opening his mouth to say: “I want to hear you say, baby*2 you’re awesome!”

Just hearing that caused Bai Luo Luo Yin to knee Gu Hai in the crotch.

Gu Hai couldn’t help but to groan into the slight pain that was searing in his nether region. His groan was so pretentious, anyone who heard it could easily draw out his current his emotional state.

“You have me.”

Gu Hai’s hands that were gently caressing Bai Luo Yin’s warm back suddenly came to a halt.

A moment later, Bai Luo Yin softly repeated those words once again, “It’s okay, you have me.”

It was in this unspeakable moment, Gu Hai’s cold and crystallized heart, thoroughly……completely, softened all at once. It felt as though the bottom of his heart was being flooded with an overwhelming, unwavering wave of emotions that he, himself, was unable to control.

It was as if time ceased, as if his breath was taken away from him, as if in this world nothing else exist. There was nothing in this world that could give him more comfort than those three words.

At the stage in his life, when he was at his lowest, feeling helpless, lost, pain and suffered……he had always thought that he would forever hide alone in that lonely, desolate and empty room, licking his own wound. However, against all expectations, those three words broke through the gate where all his sorrowful memories and pain, deeply reside.

All the grievance and unwillingness poured out at that moment. Even though he could not bear to touch upon that weak corner of his soul, he could already feel two hands tightly holding on to him.

Gu Hai lightly bit Bai Luo Yin’s warm lips that were sweetly sealed on his.

In that split second, feeling the slight pain, Bai Luo Yin pulled his tongue and swept it across his lips, there was a hint of sexual arousal sitting at the tip of his tongue.

A second later, waves of heavy breathing transmitted from within the quilt.

“Does it hurt?” Gu Hai leaned toward the side of Bai Luo Yin’s ear and asked, whilst this chin practically rested on said boy’s shoulder. Bai Luo Yin gently turned his head to the side and sweetly kissed Gu Hai’s warm neck. His lips could feel the blooding rushing about in the thick vein beneath it.

All the pain and suffering once within your embrace has become unworthy. All the sorrow once within your comfort quietly disappears into the distance.

Finally, using a bit of strength, Gu Hai bit into Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder.

“Yin Zi, I only have you. You are all my happiness.”

Bai Luo Yin gritted his teeth and bore the pain. He could vividly feel the heavy weight of that love carving into his heart, taking over and consuming his mind.

“Don’t leave me.” Gu Hai managed to roar out in low voice from within his tightened throat.

The pleading sound in his voice rained on Bai Luo Yin and entered his chest, causing him to tremble, almost violently. He gripped firmly on Gu Hai’s hair as if afraid to lose him to the night, before he desperately let out, ‘okay.’


Translator’s Note:

*1 面疙瘩 miàn gēda – fried dumpling knots: similar to Gnocchi or German Spaetzles, miàn gēda is made from very soft flour dough and dropped in various delicious soups. It is a Northern Chinese specialty; many eaten this for breakfast or comfort noodle type soup.

*2 baby – here Gu Hai actually ask Yin Zi to call him, “husband” which is like a sexual word during you know what…I guess like how some people use “daddy” or whatever. I think baby fits better. So Gu Hai is basically asking Yin Zi to reply to him this way when they are…doing, ‘you know what.’

Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
Bai Luo Yin fell asleep soon after he had taken a bath. Perhaps it was due to the fact that exhaustion had sunk too deep into his skin and too harshly into his already weakened bones. Or perhaps, it was due to being mentally and physically worn out from the night’s pleasurable taste.

Taking advantage of Bai Luo Yin sound asleep, Gu Hai gently spread his butt cheeks apart to see the condition inside. Fortunately, it was only a minor swelling around that area and there was no trace of any other injury. He took the medicine that he had prepared beforehand and lightly smeared it on the swollen area. Feeling relieved, he finally laid his own fatigue body next to the form beside him.

As he looked at Bai Luo Yin sleeping face, he noticed how the rhythm of their breaths conformed with each other, creating a silent yet harmonious symphony. In that moment, an indescribable feeling stitched its way into the core of his soul, perpetually warming his heart. Those feelings of guilt and shame that has been oppressing his heart and mind into the pit of darkness, has weakened tremendously. Now, it has been replaced by a strong sense of self-pride and hopefulness about the days ahead.

This person has finally, in all senses……become a part of him. He belongs to him.

His heart and body has his name carved deeply and beautifully in it.

There was no longer any need for him to be afraid that some charming girl would sneakily cornered and take him away.

It was with this optimistic mentality that he continued to drown in as he laid there. In the end, he unexpectedly went as far as to pull Bai Luo Yin into his arm. Tightly yet gently, he embraced him, allowing the heat from their bodies to intermingle.

As he hugged Bai Luo Yin for the remaining of the night, a smile was silently painted on his lips, lulling him into slumber.

Early in the morning, when Bai Luo Yin woke up, Gu Hai’s obsidian eyes were already opened. He had been casting several surreptitious glances at him for about half an hour now.

“Does it still hurt?” asked Gu Hai.

Bai Luo Yin nonchalantly shifted in his position then turned away. Besides being a bit tired, he honestly didn’t feel anything else. Not even pain. Compared to the excruciating pain he felt after that unforgettable experience, this time around, the treatment was, to simply put, top of the line VIP. Thinking back to yesterday’s sexual entanglement, their love making scene, Bai Luo Yin was still slightly traumatized as an air of fear hovered in close proximity to him.

Later on, if he was to be played with in such a wild manner all the time, wouldn’t that mean, he’d never be able to free himself from his grasp, his control?

With just one glance at Bai Luo Yin’s expression, Gu Hai knew right away that he was not in any pain. This realization caused an overwhelming sense of self-esteem to crawl in and crowded his heart.

In this moment, he was extremely pleased with himself!

How about it? Still going to make it difficult for your husband? If I say I won’t let you feel any pain, then you definitely won’t feel any pain. What’s better, when you wake up the next day, even your energy has been revived. Later on, you should obediently satisfy your husband’s crotch, hahaha………

Bai Luo Yin was still in the midst of pondering through those recollections, when suddenly, two big hands like tiger’s claws seized his body and strongly held on to him in a rough embrace. Several sweet kisses landed on his face, leaving behind smooching sounds as it left its marks. Quickly, his lips were tightly sealed by Gu Hai’s own honey laced lips as it greedily and roughly sucked hard on it several times more. Once his lips were hot, moistened and weakened enough, it was left unattended. Gu Hai kissed his way toward his ears, neck……

His ‘spot’ there, has yet to sufficiently recuperate……yet this person was already hyped, showing off his liveliness in such a crazy appearance, even going so far as to pounce on him like a ravenous animal.

Finally, Bai Luo Yin’s hand roughly smashed into Gu Hai’s forehead. Summoning all the strength he had into his hand, he managed to push Gu Hai’s face five centimeters away.

“What are you doing?” Bai Luo Yin breathed out angrily, “Why are you being so crazy this early in the morning huh?”

Without warning, Gu Hai glued himself to Bai Luo Yin again. As if he wasn’t already close enough, he shamelessly stuck, stitched, plastered, his own face to Bai Luo Yin’ cheeks.

Seconds later, beaming with joy and excitement, he said, “I like you. The more I look at you, the more I like you. Why are you so charming, so attractive huh?”

A dark and sinister aura settled on Bai Luo Yin’s face, causing his brows to furrow before his fist flew towards Gu Hai’s stomach.

“Go away!”

After they finished eating breakfast, Gu Hai looked at Bai Luo Yin and asked, “I have to go back home and get my residential booklet, do you want to go together with me?”

At first, Bai Luo Yin didn’t want to go over there since it was Gu Wei Ting and Jiang Yuan’s house. But, once he recalled that it was also the place where Gu Hai lived since he was a kid, as well as where Gu Hai’s memories were deeply buried, he became quite interested in that place.

“En, okay.”

A rather obvious smile penetrated Gu Hai’s eyes, “I made you feel good for only one night and now you can’t even be separated from me?”

Hostility immediately ate its way onto Bai Luo Yin’s sullen face. Without warning, he furiously lifted one of his leg, turned his body with great agility toward Gu Hai, who was caught off guard. He knocked him down face first and pressed him firmly on the sofa. Then, he quickly grabbed a nearby dusting brush. Gripping firmly on the brush, he ruthlessly smacked Gu Hai’s lower back and buttocks a few dozen times.

When they locked the door to the apartment, Gu Hai was still bitterly complaining, “Why are your hands so ruthless?”

Bai Luo Yin laughed even more, not paying any attention to what Gu Hai had just said.

When the car arrived at the villa within the military base and they got out of the car, their entire beings were enveloped by a kind of cold and cheerless serenity.

Bai Luo Yin cannot help but to take a quick glance at Gu Hai.

Gu Hai once happy and cheerful expression was now replaced with a stern and apathetic coldness.

A tightening, almost suffocating sensation, raced at full speed into Bai Luo Yin’s chest, provoking within him a feeling he couldn’t describe. All he knew, he felt was that, perhaps Gu Hai asked him to come along, not solely for the purpose of allowing him to see his home but even more so, he was seeking some sort of comfort.

With a key held steadily in his hand, Gu Hai unlocked the door, pushed it open allowing the two to enter together.

There was no one at home.

The interior decorations of the room were simple and unadorned yet elegant. Everything in the room has been placed in a neat and orderly manner, even the floor is polished to the point that it shined.

It looked as though no one ever lived there.

Although this kind of room was pleasant to look at, it easily gave off a kind of oppress and stifling feeling. Someone like Bai Luo Yin whose laid back and carefree, would feel uncomfortable staying here.

“Do you want to see my room?” asked Gu Hai.

Without replying, Bai Luo Yin directly followed Gu Hai inside.

This was a really neat and tidy room, so much so that, not even a single poster hung on the wall. The quilt was folded neatly into a square shape and the bed sheet was pulled tightly to the edge of the bed as to not allow any wrinkles to be seen. With such a room, it would cause anyone to think of the room that Gu Hai had lived at in the military dormitory.

Despite the fact that he had not returned here for a few months already, the room remained the same as it was before, neat. There was even a flower pot at the ledge of the window, emitting a faint yet sweet aroma.

It was evident and easily enough to perceive that someone came here everyday to clean up.

Gu Hai crouched down near the cabinet and flipped some things around in search of his residential booklet.

Unable to help with much, Bai Luo Yin walked around the room. He looked at the books on the bookcase; apart from some famous literary novels and reference books, the remaining were all comprised of military books.

At the upper level of the bookcase, there was a beautifully bounded book sealed between the others. From the look of it, it didn’t seem like it belonged with the rest since it stood out so much. Bai Luo Yin brought it down for a look, it was only then did he discovered that it was a photo album.

Inside were several photos of Gu Hai from various stages of his life. There was even a picture of Gu Hai when he was just one hundred days old. It was hard to imagine, that he once had such innocence and pureness in his eyes. Soon after, he saw some photos of Gu Hai when he was teenager. It was a group picture of him with some kids from the military base. Standing amongst the group of kids, his domineering and aggressive demeanor was hard to miss; there were also photos of him with officers of all ranks and military troops; and ones with his brothers and comrades strolling around together on the streets……

Bai Luo Yin noticed that in all of Gu Hai’s photograph, whenever a photograph was taken, he only had one posture, one expression……that was, he was rather stiff and indifference in all of them. He couldn’t help but want to burst out laughing, however, he also felt a touch of sorrow carving its way toward the bottom of his heart.

He recalled that once, Gu Hai had told him, the him before was a very proper and serious person. At that time, Bai Luo Yin just snorted disdainfully. Now, after having seen these pictures, Bai Luo Yin unexpectedly found that it wasn’t so hard to imagine.

Perhaps, before he had known Gu Hai, Gu Hai was truly the type of person he said he was. His life was after all always enclosed with a sense of seriousness and stiffness. It was almost as if his soul was made from metal scraps and put together to form a whole being. His heart and the feelings that went along with it, had long become numb, and in turn, his character naturally gravitated towards a calmer psyche……

As he flipped through the pages of the album, Bai Luo Yin’s earthen eyes were fixated on one particular photo.

The Gu Hai in this photograph was probably around three or four years old. His little body leaned gently against a woman’s embrace, with a very well-behaved and obedient manner shrouding his entire appearance. The woman looked very dignified, the atmosphere around her full of gentleness. Her facial features were somewhat similar to those of Gu Hai’s. Bai Luo Yin guessed that she must be Gu Hai’s late mother.

Amongst all of the photos, this was the only one that showed Gu Hai smiling.

Staring at the photo, at the Gu Hai he’s never seen and the smile that graced his lips, Bai Luo Yin seemed as though he was still daydreaming. Then, without warning, the photo album was swiftly snatched from within his grasp.

“What are you recklessly looking at?” asked Gu Hai, pretending to be angry as he looked at Bai Luo Yin, “Did I give you permission to look at it?”

Bai Luo Yin didn’t say anything.

Gu Hai asked again, “I look extremely handsome don’t I?”

To that, Bai Luo Yin only replied back with two words, “Extremely stupid!”

Laughter finally found its way into Gu Hai’s voice as he placed the photo album back on the bookcase.

“Did you find the residential booklet?”

Gu Hai waved the brown booklet in his hand around, “Right here.”

“Then, let’s go,” said Bai Luo Yin as he pushed the bedroom door open.

Gu Hai hesitated for a moment before he faintly said, “I want to go to my mother’s room.”

Bai Luo Yin could only nod his head understandingly, “Okay, I’ll wait for you outside.”

He then took the booklet from Gu Hai’s hand and watched as he disappeared into his mother’s room. Right after, the door closed in front of him. Suddenly, there was an abrupt change in Bai Luo Yin’s mood; it became somewhat serious. Perhaps, it was because he could sense the sorrow and desolate atmosphere that emitted from the room.

From the start, Gu Hai had never taken the initiative to mention his mother to him at all. Bai Luo Yin only knew that his mother had already passed away, but as far as when she passed away or how she passed away, Bai Luo Yin was completely in the dark. Yet, contrariwise, in regard to his family matters, Gu Hai understood it all as clear as day. And often, Gu Hai took the role as the person to comfort him. Despite the fact that he was the one who actually needed to be comfort.

Now, Bai Luo Yin could clearly sense, even feel it in his now tightened chest, that the pain Gu Hai suffered was even more bitter and harsh than his own. He, himself, had merely never experience a mother’s love and affection, but his mother is still alive and around. He can still see her whenever he wants.

However, Gu Hai has long been stripped off, torn cruelly away from that world full of warmth. Those once brightly lit days has fallen into a pitch black night. And alone he sat it in.

With somewhat of a melancholy expression staining his face, step by step Bai Luo Yin made his way downstairs. He wanted nothing more than to give Gu Hai and his mother some space, one encased with peace and quiet.

When he arrived down the stairs, near the living room, the door suddenly opened, a beautiful silhouette walked in.

Jiang Yuan looked at Bai Luo Yin for a brief moment and a second later, her dark and gloomy face brightened up bringing out her youthful appearance. It was as if, she had completely forgotten those disrespect words that her son had said to her before. There was nothing else but happiness welling up in her heart as she looked at Bai Luo Yin with warm and caring eyes.

“Luo Yin, why are you here?”

Bai Luo Yin indifferently replied back, “Gu Hai said he needed to get his residential booklet, so I came along with him.”

“Oh, his residential booklet! It’s in the second drawer of his cabinet. It’s placed between a book there. I’ll go take a look,” informed Jiang Yuan as she struck a posture signifying that she was going to head upstairs.

Bai Luo Yin stopped Jiang Yuan, “He found it already.”

Jiang Yuan stopped in place, then a smile graced her lips, “It’s good that he found it then.”

Bai Luo Yin didn’t say anything else.

Jiang Yuan gazed at Bai Luo Yin before inquiring, “How about staying here for lunch?”

“No, Gu Hai will be out any moment now and we’re going to head out.’

After saying that, Bai Luo Yin headed straight out the door.

The car was parked at the gateway. Bai Luo Yin sat inside and waited for Gu Hai. He casually looked toward the villa, through the French-style window, and into the room. Jiang Yuan’s shadow was swaying back and forth around the spacious room; sometimes it was clear and sometimes it was a blur.

From her appearance, it looked as though she had more or less completed her tasks. Then, she sat down at a table near a window for a moment. She calmly and quietly sat there, staring at the world outside. He wasn’t able to distinguish the expression on her face.

Bai Luo Yin couldn’t help but to guess:

What does she do everyday? Could it be, that apart from tidying up those huge rooms, she sat there like that all day? Isn’t she bored? Isn’t it meaningless? Or could it be that as long as those high price furniture and decorations were in front of her eyes, nothing else mattered?

Jiang Yuan leaving Bai Han Qi to marry Gu Wei Ting, had always made Bai Luo Yin felt that she loves money and power. But, now looking at her sitting alone like that in this empty and desolate house, he suddenly felt differently about things.

If Jiang Yuan really wanted to pursue a lavish lifestyle, why didn’t she just approach a rich chief executive officer? Why would she choose a soldier? How could a woman whose selfish yet intelligent like her not know the hardship of being the wife of a military general?

Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
In the silent room masked by the sweet smell permeating from a small bottle held securely within Gu Hai’s warm hands, the remaining lubricant was squeezed on his own member. Making sure to thoroughly smoothened the oil evenly on that seemingly ebullient and scorching hot fellow, he pressed down on Bai Luo Yin’s waist.

Taking a deep breath, he slowly let his member face the target of its craving and little by little, inched its way in.

In that split second, Bai Luo Yin’s earthen eyes, once shut tightly from this sexual endeavor, instantaneously shot open.

Gritting his teeth hard against each other, as if his precious life depended on it, produced a distinct and beautiful outline of his lower jaw. For a moment in this indefinite space, his breathing briefly eased, making way for his face to stiffen with an overwhelming sensation. The large veins in his neck that pulsated beneath his brilliant skin was the only clear evident that his life has yet to be take away. That he was still alive.

Gu Hai’s breathe became stagnant for a fleeting moment when he squeezed inside a second ago. This time, he discovered that Bai Luo Yin did not shout nor bellow out in rage. With much relieve swelling in his once tightened chest, he warmly smiled. However, it could not be helped that there was a slight amusement in the way the corner of his lips curved.

“Do you trust me this time? I said I won’t let you be in pain so you definitely won’t be in pain.”

Bai Luo Yin stared blankly into space for a few seconds and without warning, he let out a wail of anguish: “I fucking trust you alright! How is it not painful? It fucking hurts so bad!”

There was a pause in Gu Hai’s movement as an expression of disbelief quickly drew across his face. “It can’t be huh? Just a moment ago, all three fingers went in…according to what I’ve read, there shouldn’t be any problems!”

“Three fingers, three fucking fingers……” Bai Luo Yin was fuming with anger between his already gritted teeth as he turned to look behind him. “What good is three fucking fingers huh? Are you fucking playing around, it’s more than five fingers already,” he cursed, still full of rage.

Gu Hai’s eyebrows rose simultaneously as he asked in a ridiculing manner: “Are you praising me or are you mocking me?”

Bai Luo Yin powerlessly lie on his stomach, letting the cool fabric kissed his skin as he blankly stared at the arabesque designs on the headboard of the bed. He incessantly chastised himself:

Serves you right! You don’t have enough brains to learn from the previous incident! He said it wouldn’t hurt and you fucking believe him?

Once again, Gu Hai pushed in a little bit more which made Bai Luo Yin felt as though his bones were grinding against each other. In all honestly, he could not bear it any longer. And as he lied on the bed, he shouted into the air.

This time, Gu Hai dared not budge; not even the slightest. He gently and lightly laid his body down. With much compassion drowning in his eyes, he reached over and allowed his hand to rub tenderly against Bai Luo Yin’s neck.

With gentle fingers, he reoriented Bai Luo Yin’s face so that it held the gaze that the other boy did not want to give him He stole the nameless passion that had sunk deep in Bai Luo Yin’s eyes which only magnified the spark in his own. There was no smile on his lips, only the hot intensity of his gaze that spoke of the start of an inferno to come.

Softly he asked, “It really hurts?”


“Then, what should we do?”

Bai Luo Yin scowled miserably, reproaching him, “Take it out!”

Gu Hai became helpless and without any other option he slowly withdrew.

But as a result, Bai Luo Yin shouted into the room, unable to bear even the slightest friction caused by the retraction.


“What exactly do you want me to do huh, go in or pull out?”

Bai Luo Yin gasped for air, the overwhelming sensation caused his internals to heat up and even when he tried to pull more air into his lungs, it still was not enough. His body felt weak as if all the strength once circulating within was forcibly removed.

With much effort, he powerlessly said, “Don’t move, just stay like that,” his voice was weak with almost a hint of pleading.

“I can’t hold it,” replied Gu Hai truthfully.

Who can hold it after coming this far?

“Even if you can’t, you still have to!” retorted Bai Luo Yin heartlessly, “Wait until it softens then take it out.”

In the end, little Hai Zi indeed remained inside, as Gu Hai waited, trying his hardest not to cause any sudden movement.

Several silent minutes passed by with only the sound of their breaths invading their ears. But even then, not only was Bai Luo Yin unable to relax, instead it became even harder for him to bear this excruciating pain.

At that moment, Gu Hai lightly patted his back, “Hey! Looks like it got bigger!”

Bai Luo Yin turned a shade of green when he heard those words sung out of Gu Hai’s mischievous lips.

Today, he has truly trod into a dangerous criminal takeover zone!

Countless emotions gushed into his heated heart and crowded the space once unoccupied. Ordinarily, this eminent and handsome face would not be frightened by any awe inspiring wave of emotion, but this time around, it tightened with such sped, even Bai Luo Yin himself was unable to take full control.

Toughening his heart against this natural desire, his eyes wandered off into the night. He watched the night sky stood high, crowded by the towering buildings displaying its brilliant lights as it competed with the inky canopy of the darkness, freckled only by the fewest of stars.

Where can I take shelter from this inescapable feeling?

Smitten with Bai Luo Yin various emotional adventure, a smile crept its hideousness on Gu Hai’s lips. If this smile alone was on Bai Luo Yin’s sweet lips, it would had burnished Gu Hai’s soul into a beauty it could never achieve on its own. Before they met, they were one, but now, they are half yet somehow even then, they had become so much more than before.

The longer he let his eyes run down Bai Luo Yin’s slightly moisten face, he felt his own spirit sink just a little deeper. Unable to contain this uncontrollable emotion, he reached toward his face and touched it light before the urge to kiss took over. Though his skin was beautiful and sweet like honey under his lips, it is the feel that sent Gu Hai’s mind into a sensual state of intoxication.

Bai Luo Yin restrained himself, ignoring those warm kisses and tickling sensations on his skin. This only provoked Gu Hai who then kissed him again, it was so delightful that he did not want to stop.

Gu Hai kissed his tinted cheek one last time and softly said, “That’s enough, we’ve already reached this point. It will be over once we’ve endure it for a few more minutes. Even if it hurts, the pain will only last for a moment. Last time you messed with me, in the beginning it was painful, but afterwards it also felt good. I’m not lying to you.”

Bai Luo Yin’s eyes immediately brightened up, a flash of light danced beautifully across them, “How about we switch again?”

“Don’t. Wouldn’t that mean you were in pain for nothing?”


Bai Luo Yin painfully pounded his fist on the bed.

Gu Hai smiled, actually it was almost a giggle as he squeezed some more lubricant on the root of his aching member that had not have the chance to feel the warmness inside yet. With much care and love in each of his gentle actions, he slowly inched in.

The pace was extremely slow, so slow that even Gu Hai felt the pain of having his member consumed. Knowing well that Bai Luo Yin was also finding it unbearable, he tried as much as possible to excite and stimulate little Yin Zi so that it too, was not feeling much pain.

For the first round, a whole minute had been used up, Gu Hai looked at the time nearby. Based on his incredible physical strength, going at this speed, he reckoned even he would not be able to complete anything in one given night.

Summoning up all his courage, Bai Luo Yi braced himself and said, “Go a bit faster.”

“I’m scared you’ll be hurt.”

Having given up all hope, Bai Luo Yin could only weakly say, “Better to just get the pain over with, rather than to prolong the agony.”

Not listening to a single word that sung out of the other boy’s sweet lips, Gu Hai continued to followed his own, excruciating slow yet, enchanting rhythm. He heard Bai Luo Yin’s breathing become deeper, his posture altered a bit yet he stayed close, not moving away from his touches.

The second time he pushed in and pulled, it did not seem so difficult. It took half a minute for him to gently push in and pull again. Following that slow pace rhythm allowed for the third insertion and retraction to be even more smooth.

Within ten seconds……Gu Hai gradually quickened his pace.

Bai Luo Yin’s teeth were screwed tightly together and even if it hurt, he refused to utter a word. He remained this way until he could no longer tell if his rear was sore or if another sensation had replaced that soreness, but at the least he did not feel so tormented.

He tried to loosen his jaw, letting the muscle around it relax before he took in another deep breath. This time it was easier to breathe and he didn’t feel any particular pain. He twisted his head around to take a quick glance.

Gu Hai’s eyes were close with an expression of enjoyment kissing every corner of his face. This kind of joyous expression would make living creature envious.

Just seeing that pleasurable face of his made Bai Luo Yin snorted rather coldly.

Hmph! Don’t be pleased with yourself, sooner or later, you’ll also have to endure this.

Gu Hai had already occupied every inch of Bai Luo Yin’s tightly walled-in passage. He suddenly became aware of the short period of time, where he lied feeling wasted. He thought of the struggles that he went through, the were hardships and setbacks, but knowing that he was able to arrive at this moment made everything well worth it.

It felt so comfortable, so tight, so hot that the euphoria of the pleasure warmed his veins, coursing through them. It felt so incredibly good, that no words could sufficiently describe it. With such pleasure crawling to every inch of his heated body, the urge to urge loudly into the ebony night tickled his tongue senseless.

With breathless impatient, Gu Hai pushed in all the way, leaving no space between them. Bai Luo Yin once relaxed demeanor immediately became distorted again, his brows twisted together in disagreement.

His hand clung tightly onto the bedside as he pitifully spoke, “Ah…it hurts……”

Those words were so sudden it almost pulled Gu Hai out of his feeling of exhilaration. He carefully observed Bai Luo Yin’s face as he lightly caressed his forehead, “Feel out the sensation a bit, is it really pain?” After saying that, he pushed in all the way again.

In the twilight room, Gu Hai’s fingers caressed his skin as if afraid a heavier touch would break the heady magic. Bai Luo Yin felt as though acupuncture needles were being placed on him. For a split second, a tingling sensation spread almost evenly on his entire body, beckoning him to name it, to cave into it but still he was unable to describe this ‘pain’.

After a while, that sensation was gone and his body became relaxed once again. But this time, it seemed even his bones had softened, it too felt intoxicated.

With ecstasy exciting every twisted nerves in his body, Gu Hai let his throbbing and hot member push in several times.

In that moment, Bai Luo Yin’s body curled, the upper half of his body slightly arched up. Before, he was all logic and feigned cool detachment to the sensation that he could not possibly named but that was only until a broken ragged moan inevitably tore its way out of his sweet lips.

Then something not only stirred in him, but it took over his thinking. As if a match has been lit and dropped on his already fuel soaked body, a scorching flames was set ablaze and eagerly circulated to even the tiniest and most hidden part of his being. Under Gu Hai’s electrifying touches, the rest of the world became an unimportant blur that had long been banished into the far recesses of his mind.

The lower half of his body trembled as waves of electric shocks seared about. Unable to bear this sensation, his hands shot forth to grip tightly on Gu Hai’s arm, even his fingers felt weak as it dug into the skin beneath it. He prayed, almost pleaded for him to stop.

And it was in this way that……Gu Hai moved incessantly, without any pause. Once again, he roughly charged in. With his member magnificently facing that part, he firmly thrust in with a mighty force.

Bai Luo Yin’s neck perked up, a painful expression painted exceptionally well on his face. But, along with that pain there was also an intrinsic difference to it. At that moment, Gu Hai could clearly sense that Bai Luo Yin had absolutely reached or at least touched upon that delightful state of euphoria.

Once again, Gu Hai pushed roughly in then with his low and beguiling voice, tuned with an unearthly charm, he asked, “Do you feel it?”

Bai Luo Yin could feel the heat, along with the redness, gradually growing on his cheeks. By now, they must be beyond attractive rosiness, possibly bordering an embarrassing bruise. They marked him, giving the other boy an insight into his emotional state. He felt as though his insecurities were writ blindingly across his face and there was nowhere for him to hide away this internal atrocity.

As the realization of this sensation became known to him, his brows wrinkled together and his lips remained sealed, refusing admittance even if his life begged otherwise.

Gu Hai slightly straighten up the upper half of his body and from that angle, he concentrated on intensely stimulating that tight spot. This increase in friction cause Bai Luo Yin’s waist to give out and tremble, almost violently.

His toes tingled as if candle wax had been poured on them causing them to curl as they dug deep into the bed sheets. His eyes were closed, shielded by a heavy and unspoken passion. His breathing was quick and shallow and his seductive lips were slightly parted as beads of sweat danced closely to each other on his forehead, telling him that they want to roll down his heated face.

In the now heated room, their breaths had long intermingled in a chaotic dance.

“Do you feel it?” he whispered in a warm, breathlessly husky sigh, in a voice that draped around over them like a warm blanket on a cold winters night.

Bai Luo Yin’s expression was written with shame and resentment as he endured silently, still unwilling to admit anything.

A second later, Gu Hai became so wild and erotic, it was almost as if he was lost in a state of confusion. His roguish nature unearthed from its deeply hidden confinement and started a rebellion. He wanted so strongly, so desperately to know the answer to his question.

He lifted up one of Bai Luo Yin’s soft yet firm leg and placed it on his shoulder then he forced him to lean to the side and pressed down firmly on his other leg. In this posture, it was easier for him to access that spot and strongly thrust in.

Bai Luo Yin’s waist was held down by Gu Hai, and both of his legs were spread wide open. Without even the chance to feel the shame or the humiliation that should have attacked his heart and mind, all of his emotions were yanked forth by the numerous and consistent frictions that excited his nether region.

A pleasurable and tantalizing feeling gushed from below. This incredible, indescribably searing sensation erupted from deep within his belly and thrashed about wildly. Waves upon waves of exquisite ecstasy unfurled throughout his body in ever increasing maelstroms of heat. While series after series of thrilling electric currents pulsed outward from the deepest and most hidden part of that private vital center buried within his pelvis. Feeling the strained, intense need, soar high in himself, Bai Luo Yin completely lost all of his mental capability. Enchantment has brushed his senses and his logic aside, and in its place, all he felt was hot, fiery desire.

The rapture of Bai Luo Yin’s wild throbbing responses sent fierce shivers of pleasure over throughout Gu Hai’s member. It then crawled its way up his body, carrying his five senses on an endless, swirling crest to the pinnacle of passion, then lingered there in brilliant, timeless bliss.

Gu Hai’s waist was like an electric generator, both the strength and its frequency were astonishing. He looked carefully, with lust and seduction in his supercilious eyes at Bai Luo Yin. His formidable and imposing manner appeared as though he wanted to take Bai Luo Yin and swallowed him whole.

A shattered moan squeezed its way out from Bai Luo Yin’s stiffened throat. He felt as though he was going crazy and his entire body refused to listen to him, as it took control of itself.

When Gu Hai heard the alluring moan flowed out of Bai Luo Yin’s mouth, he brought his head forward and stared down. He saw his tinted face when he looked deeply into his lovely eyes. Even with the faint starlight and the light from the distant moon, he could see the rich contour of his handsome face. His eyes were bright, eager, and sultry with passion that betrayed the words that escaped his lips.

Gu Hai pinched Bai Luo Yin’s moistened chin and faintly asked: “Do you feel it?”

Bai Luo Yin clung on obstinately to his last bit of self righteousness. When Gu Hai thrust into him with high intensity once again, Bai Luo Yin could instinctively feel that he could not hold on much longer. Even more so, little Yin Zi was already swollen so hard, to the point that it was aching.

Every single moment, Gu Hai connected with him, it pushed him to the edge of exploding, however there was always that little bit of hindrance that stopped him. He felt that if he was tormented with this sensation again, he would indeed lose his breath and die.

He tried to use his own hand to relieve and free himself of his overwhelming sensation, however, Gu Hai’s quick hand flew forth and stopped him from doing so.

Then, immediately afterwards, Gu Hai’s fingers pirouetted its ways slowly from his Bai Luo Yin’s knee, and trailed inward along his inner thigh. As his fingers danced along, teasing him and leaving a trail of tingling hot sensation, it finally met little Yin Zi and held tightly on it.

Not only did he not help him release, he even went so far as to prevent him from releasing. Second later, his rear end was cruelly thrust against just as before. For a long while now, the taste of this pain had already changed.

Bai Luo Yin felt as though his body was burning in a sea of flame. Little Yin Zi was already pumped to its full capacity. It was held on and strained to the point where even breathing was difficult for him. The consistent electric currents in his rear was like a tidal wave flowing endlessly as it made its way toward and connected with the shocking current in his member. He can feel it so vividly; he won’t be able to bear it much longer.

Gu Hai suddenly slowed down. But even then, one by one, with every thrust, there was strength and accuracy.

Every time he closed in on the gap that dared to separate them, he asked over and over, “Do you feel it? Do you feel it? Do you feel it?………”

Finally, Bai Luo Yin crumbled. A warm, reeling sensual sexual awareness took control of his body. His brain said one thing, but the overwhelming power of his desire made his heart and loin say something else. As he collapsed into this pleasure, there was a sudden pause in his breathing before he shakily replied in a low roar, “I feel it.”

The admittance of his near climax sensation felt relieving.

Hot beads of sweat rolled eminently along Gu Hai’s warm cheeks and flowed down toward his chin. He licked the salty sweat from the corner of his curved and arrogant lips.

“Good, let’s come together.”

In that split, inevitable moment in time, as if a magnificent force made up of ten and thousands of men and horses had charged force and arrived at the battleground, it became hard to predict and sought out where the high frequency of their excitements began and where it ended.

Bai Luo Yin’s entire body and even his fleeting soul was placed in the midst of a scorching heatwave that sought to engulf and consume him within its raging flame. This flame refused to ease as it continued to burn and set him on fire……

It felt as though an ammunition was secretly hiding within him and in any given moment, it was going to abruptly split open and explode. Every single nerve in his body turned fluid and molten as they convulsed in a lusty spasm of passion.

In one moment, he had instantaneously freed his soul from redemption, then right after this mirage changed and he was now soaring high toward seventh heaven. As this unearthly pleasure consumed him, he fluttered about in this seemingly false reality.

Once Bai Luo Yin returned from his state of euphoria, an extremely greedy guy had already gazed upon and taken in the whole intoxicating scene. Even more so, he had carved this image into his brain and allowed it to travel through his veins like drugs for an addict.

Today, Gu Hai’s felt so good that he exploded in a sea of ecstasy.

Especially during the last moment.

He tightly hugged Bai Luo Yin’s heated body and as if to become one, he thrust into the pinnacle of his breaking point. It was hard and full of grandeur that even he was unaware of. Though swiftly diminishing to shadows of their initial ecstasy, spasms continued to shoot vigorously through his body like wandering, aimless rockets.

Being able to hear his moans, out of control and in its animalistic nature right next to him, along with the feeling of his hot breath hovering over his ear, made Gu Hai wanted to simply take him over again and connected with him until he died!

Physically satiated, the aftertaste of it made Gu Hai still a little dazed as he plastered like super glue on Bai Luo Yin’s sweaty and still hot body.

Excited and full of joy and expectations, he held tightly onto Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder and said: “Baby, what do you want, you can tell your big brother!”

Bai Luo Yin’s tightened fist swept past the left side of Gu Hai’s face, “Who is older and who is younger hmmm?”

Gu Hai immediately caressed the left side of his own face in a sulky manner, before mockingly saying, “Fine! Looks like you still have some strength left in you. This is proof that I didn’t fuck you hard enough just a moment ago! How about we go again?”

After saying this, he faced Bai Luo Yin and pressed hard on him again. But Bai Luo Yin quickly responded, his hands snaked toward Gu Hai’s neck and firmly gripped it, wishing he could choke him to death.

The two tussled about on the bed for a while. But even then, their touches were soft, their voices laced with unspoken sweet words.

In the end, it was Gu Hai who loosen his hands and let go first, before softly saying, “Okay okay, go take a shower. Afterwards, we can sleep a bit earlier.”

Author: Chai Jidan, Translator: Sae Han
If truth be told, since the night Bai Luo Yin ran back home, he already knew it, felt it in the depths of his bones, that this inevitable day had been long ordained. Choosing to be with Gu Hai was the same as choosing a path with no way out. He cannot be too preoccupied with always wanting to be the top forever. Even more so, escaping from it only signified that there’s a stain, a wrinkle….a ripple in the fabric of their relationship.

And yet……he was unwilling to part with Gu Hai.

All these contradictions, like barbed wires, thronged with sharp edges, twisted and turned endlessly together as it clung tightly to each other. It was impossible to unwind and straighten out this wretched entanglement and even the most noble of all scissors would not be able to break it apart. With just the slightest touch from these seemingly slithering wires, it had already been predetermined that a scorching, searing and extremely painful sensation would strike the pit of his already churning stomach.

He allowed his head to hang loose with eyes that looked as though they were staring into the abyss of an unknown place. Within seconds, he powerlessly laid his head upon Gu Hai’s broad shoulder. He really wanted to immediately break this person in half with his bare hands and swallow him whole until he reached the bottom of his stomach. In this way, he would not have to worry about being eaten by him. More importantly, he also would not have to worry about him running away.

Gu Hai’s trembling hands snaked toward Bai Luo Yin’s head, lifting it up from his own shoulder. Gently, he turned it ever so slightly allowing that familiar face to directly face him. Love was it. It was love that shielded his eyes, with a type of incurable addiction, he looked at those pair of stubborn pupils in front of him. And silently within his already tightened chest, it was as if his heart had the voice to verbalize his feelings, and it said:

You freaking smart ass, always torturing me all day. Making me impatient and hunger stricken. When I want to eat you up, you make it impossible. And when I want to hate you, my heart betrays me……How should I deal with you?

Bai Luo Yin was also keeping a weather eye on Gu Hai as voiceless thoughts crept into his restless mind. These thoughts unknowingly imitate ones similar to this obscene person as it scolded and cursed away.

You fucking greedy ass cat. All day, the only thing you know how to do is to eat. It would have been good if your fucking mouth was a bit smaller. Why must it be so big like that. Sooner or later, you’re going to die from getting so stuffed! *1

For about two minutes or so, the room was rather silent as the two sat staring at each others’ countenance. Quite different from their external surrounding, mentally, they were hurling insults at one another.

Once again, as if clock work, they shamelessly drew close, allowing their arms to gently take in each other’s warm body. As this embrace closed the distance that kept them apart, their lips met in a much needed kiss. It has been a while since they’ve tasted each other, yet like always, their lips fitted together so perfectly that they might as well have been doing it a thousand times over.

What it somewhat lacked in gentleness and that feeling of romance, it made up with passion. One that was encircled by a scorching blaze.

Their beard stubbles chafed against each other, causing boundless amount of electric current to generate from their chin. It tickled their necks as it traveled along and gathered closely in their chests until it reached their stomachs. As if the end fuse of a bomb was lit, these electric currents exploded with a powerful reach and dispersed into every single nerve in their body.

It has been a long while since he has been deprived. He could almost feel in the depths of his heart and mind, that he indeed, missed and longed for it. Quickly this treacherous arousal greedily emerged. Gu Hai’s hands weaved their way toward the hem of Bai Luo Yin’s shirt and slowly crawled underneath, before inching solicitously upward along the smoothness of his skin.

Conforming with Gu Hai’s intimate touches, Bai Luo Yin squarely placed his hand between Gu Hai’s legs. He could feel the member beneath the soft fabric of the pant throbbing vigorously with vitality.

And at the same time, he could feel his own body’s heat reaching its boiling point.

The loud sound of gasping for air and panting spread throughout the living room.

In this fanatical and heated moment, Gu Hai’s hand suddenly stopped in track and he faintly said, “Go shower.”

But Bai Luo Yin wished to continue this.

Gu Hai, however, said once again, “I don’t want to force you. You must be quite tired as well from racking your brain just to torment me. Take a nice bath and have a good night sleep.”

After he finished saying this, he got up and started to walk away in a rather slow mannerism.

Bai Luo Yin was right behind Gu Hai, staring at him with a very peculiar expression in his eyes for a quite a while. Suddenly he leaped forward and chased after him. His arm swung and made a loop around Gu Hai’s neck, gripping at it tightly with a rather powerful force before he coldly asked:

“Trying to loosen the reign before you can capture the prey huh? You don’t have any good intentions do you?”

Gu Hai drew back the corner of his mouth into a rather overt smirk, “You know it and you still followed.”

With that said, he quickly turned around and suddenly closed the bathroom door. Looking at the lingering anger on Bai Luo Yin’s face that had yet to disappear, Gu Hai knew, that he had already agreed.

“Help me rub my back,” said Gu Hai as he turned around and let his back face Bai Luo Yin.

Bai Luo Yin ignored him, picked up the shower sprinkler and slowly rinsed his own body down.

Less than a second later, Gu Hai unexpectedly jumped in front of him, and without any explanation at all, he snatched the shower sprinkler from Bai Luo Yin’s hand. He adjusted the sprinkler to its maximum pressure, faced it toward little Yin Zi and sprayed the water at it as if to rinse it.

Suddenly a warm sensation gathered together in that weak and sensitive area. It was like a big hand was on top of his member, gently and softly caressing it. All of a sudden, Bai Luo Yin’s legs weakly trembled before he shifted and stepped back. He wanted to evade and hide from this kind of excitement that made it hard for people, for for him, to endure.

Unfortunately, Gu Hai’s hand responded with great speed and followed closely, continuing to spray the water. Bai Luo Yin’s body moved back again until his back made contact with the ice-cold wall of the shower stall. As the coldness that permeated from wall coursed throughout his body, he could not help but to let a moan emerge from the back of his throat and escape his lips.

Gu Hai laughed rather frivolously, “That moan was very seductive, let me hear it again.”

Bai Luo Yin raised his hand, with every intention to smack Gu Hai a couple of times. However, instead Gu Hai seized this grand opportunity and tightly gripped Bai Luo Yin’s wrist. Then along with having already seized the other hand, Gu Hai bind them firmly together with only one of his hand. He pulled them both up and held them fast at the top of Bai Luo Yin’s head.

With much control and ease, Gu Hai stooped slightly down and started to gently and slowly lick and bite along Bai Luo Yin’s smooth and wet neck. His tongue teased and took its time to taste the skin, feeling the veins underneath throb a bit faster every time his teeth lightly grazed against it.

Accompanied by a stream of water that ran down profusely from the top of Bai Luo Yin’s head, Gu Hai kissed his way down.

The moist warmth on Bai Luo Yin’s nipple brought such a shock of pleasure that he forgot every thought that had been floating through his brain. Gu Hai had his mouth there, kissing and nibbling on it for a while before his skilled tongue wandered elsewhere.

Gu Hai continued to kiss and bite his way passed the underarm, down the side of the torso, and stomach………

The dense hair between Bai Luo Yin’s leg was washed clean and softened by the streaming water, allowing Gu Hai’s tongue to easily sweep it away before locating its main target. His tongue flicked over it briefly, bewitchingly, seductively, then with tantalizing slowness, he slid the member in and out of his mouth. Ever so tenderly, he sucked down on it, worrying it with his teeth as his tongue wrapped warmly, moistly around the shaft. Each time his head bobbed back and forth, his teeth would lightly scrape against the soft skin.

He picked his flirtatious eyes off the ground and intuitively glanced at Bai Luo Yin. His eyes licked over him with caressing heat as he surveyed his pliable chest, the lustrous smoothness of his belly, the sensuous flair of his hips that flowed into the firmness of his soft and supple thighs, and the long and flowing lines of his lovely legs……legs that could easily wrap around a man, and with much ease, hold him prisoner until he could no longer think straight…until he willingly drowns in a sea of wild ecstasy.

Bai Luo Yin felt pain and numbness crowded together in his limbs but even worse, he felt a sense of shame. Now feeling as if his breaths were being taken away unwillingly, he crudely gasped for more air. He then took Gu Hai’s head and pressed hard on it with his hands. However, having momentarily neglecting the fact that his own member was still in Gu Hai’s mouth, for a split second, he felt an intense pain coursed throughout his member.

The expression of his own enjoyment and endurance painted itself vividly on Gu Hai’s face. With the look of pleasure kissing his face joyfully, Gu Hai’s member became slightly swollen of its own accord even without it being touched or fondled with.

Under the flowing water, the two wet bodies were excited and stimulated until their erections were at their peak. They gently caressed, stroked, kissed, and rubbed against each other. Their breaths were accompanied by the flowing water and blended harmoniously into a beautiful symphony. This sound entered their ears and excited them even more.

“Baby, I want you.”

Gu Hai took Bai Luo Yin’s hand within his own and placed in on his already burning member. He wanted him to know, to feel in the deepest part of his heart and mind, that he was not able to wait any longer.

Bai Luo Yin’s lip moved, but he didn’t say anything.

Gu Hai held onto to him tightly, yet this hug was tender and full of gentleness. His eyes were closed and shielded with a heavy passion that refused to go away, and his seductive lips were slightly parted. The curve of Bai Luo Yin’s mouth, a mouth that was like saccharine, an infinitely desirable magnet hovering within mere inches of his lips, was made to be traced by a man’s tongue. He wanted to feel his soft lips yield under him again. He watched as those enticing lips slightly parted, breaths quickening and then becoming shallow.

For a very long time, Gu Hai kissed him. It was like a silent promise.

This time, I will be very gentle, very soft and gentle……

Lying on his stomach on the cool sheets of the bed, he could clearly see before his eyes all kinds of scented lubricants. Just from looking at those items seemingly taunting him, Bai Luo Yin felt as though, he himself was at an execution ground awaiting his inevitable death.

Amongst the various lubricant bottles, Gu Hai picked one and skillfully twisted off the cap, allowing the aroma to dispersed throughout the room. He squeezed a bit of the oil on his hand and kept in mind what the book pinpointed as the main aspects.

You must be patient and meticulous. Do not act with undue haste or eagerness.

On the contrary, who could have imagined that this kind of slow pace movements and rhythm caused Bai Luo Yin to feel even more mentally strained. He waited for a long time and continued to do so but even then Gu Hai still has yet to make any sudden movement. So instead, this anticipation made his heartbeat reach a measurement of 180 beats per minute. Feeling a shortness of breath, he gasped for several gulps of air before he slowly slipped his body off the bed.

“Hey! Don’t run!”

Gu Hai grabbed one of Bai Luo Yin’s leg and dragged him back to his previous position on the bed. As he looked at the boy beneath him, he repeatedly cursed and blamed himself mentally.

Look at what you’ve done, you’ve scared him until he became like this……after you’ve done to him, just go into the bathroom and slap yourself in the mouth ten times!

Bai Luo Yin bore an expression of being slaughtered on his face as he pressed a pillow on his own head.

Gu Hai watched Bai Luo Yin somewhat amused, not knowing whether he should laugh or cry at this outcome, “Can you relax a little bit?”

By this point, Bai Luo Yin still did not say anything and refused to listen to any words that came from the other boy’s mouth. His entire body, from the top of his soft hair to the tip of his stubborn toes was in a state of readiness, seeming as though it was preparing for war.

The pain was about to come soon, so he must, at all cost, stand his ground in the face of this adversity.

Slowly and softly, Gu Hai placed both of his hands on Bai Luo Yin’s buttocks and gently massaged it. He wanted to help Bai Luo Yin’s tight and stiffened muscle to loosen up and relax within his touch, but in the end, Bai Luo Yin still refused to cooperate.

The more he rubbed and kneaded, the muscle became even tighter. The tighter it became, the more he wanted to use even more strength to make this piece of meat slacken. Ultimately, the more he rubbed, the more painful it became for Bai Luo Yin. So as a result, a wretched howl escaped his lips along with the searing pain. He incessantly smashed his hand on the bed.

Then Gu Hai noticed that, the piece of meat in front of his eyes has already turned slightly purple from his supposedly careful kneading. He doesn’t want to lost control again, he won’t. It had been hard enough just those few minutes ago to get this precious person to be here.

There was an internal battle raging between his heart and his head from trying to keep his hands, his mouth from crawling all over this body, to keep him from caressing and licking this sweet body, to keep him from stroking him where his emotions were so hotly centered.

Beads of sweats then formed and gathered together closely atop his forehead. Only then did he become aware that the sin that he had committed ran deeper than he had expected. That the wound caused would not just suddenly disappear.

“Yin Zi, don’t think about the situation from that day again. Please take this day as our first time, okay?”

Gu Hai then kissed the tip of Bai Luo Yin’s nose where small beads of sweats had already gathered. In a small voice he continued to whisper, assuring Bai Luo Yin of his solemn promise.

Hearing those soft words repeatedly resonant in the space closest to his heated lips, Bai Luo Yin’s frame of mind gradually became at peace, tranquility finally found it way on his body, bringing it into relaxation.

Gu Hai then moved his mouth toward the nape of Bai Luo Yin’s neck and following along the ridge of his spine, he kissed along this path while making sure to take his time. He traced the contour of each disc with his tongue as it swept over them. He could almost feel those thousands of nerves setting off with every contact it made with his warm mouth. He continued to lick, let his tongue danced of its own accord, and kissed its way downward until it reached the tailbone. He carefully twirled his tongue all around that sensitive area.

Bai Luo Yin could feel an incomparable tingling sensation, somewhat of an itch. His entire waist became numb so he shifted his body as to relief himself from this “discomfort.” However, an even more intense ticklish sensation surrounded him. it was numerous and closely knitted together as if a horde of ants were gnawing and nibbling away at his bones.

A short while later, he pulled tightly on the bed sheet and gasped desperately for air before forcefully letting it out. A wave of heat engulfed his brain causing his thoughts to momentarily become blank.

At that exact moment, Gu Hai’s teeth bit and nibble tenderly at Bai Luo Yin’s anus. It was as if he was intentionally nibbling lightly then hard. With much skill, he would quicken the pace, then slow down until he could feel Bai Luo Yin’s legs trembling almost violently.

Feeling that he had fondled and teased that area well enough, Gu Hai carefully spread those two now soften cheeks apart with his hands and attacked the inside. His burning tongue swept all around the entranceway. As he continued to run his tongue over it over and over again, he slowly tasted that spot he had so long missed.

Bai Luo Yin was both afraid and excited with anticipation. His fingers gripped tightly on the bed sheets creating a hundred or more of pleats on the fabric.

Finally, Gu Hai’s tongue rested solely on that tight passageway. With much desire sitting on the tip of his tongue, he squeezed his tongue inside.

A powerful electric current rapidly emerged from the pit of Bai Luo Yin’s stomach and sent heat rising all the way from the soles of his feet, to sweep through his body like brushfire. Then, a torrent of desire flowed through him, tightening on his internals in a steel vise. A familiar warm sense of pleasure ignited inside him as the marvelous, erotic heat continued to engulfed him whole. It turned his blood into a viscid flame that fired his body from the inside out.

His toes jerked from the shock of this electric current and suddenly his waist became rather erect, before curving into a slight arch. Unable to hold it back any longer, he moaned into the pleasure.

Since you want me to be in pain, is there really a need to make me feel pleasure now? You want to first send me to heaven then kick me down to hell, don’t you?

Once again, Gu Hai poured some lubricant on his fingers. His other hand skillfully snaked its way to Bai Luo Yin’s member and worked its magic there, seeking to provoke an excitement out of that fellow. While using this enticing method as a distraction, his fingers now moisten, sneaked toward that tight passageway and slowly pushed inside, inch by inch.

Quickly, Gu Hai’s finger was wrapped tightly inside by the warmth of the inner wall. His finger felt so warm, alive and strong as it slowly moved, pushing in lightly and softly. And that same warmth sent a tingling sensation spreading up his own arm in rippling waves of heartwarming contentment that flooded every single of his being.

A smiled graced his lips as he looked at Bai Luo Yin with eyes that seemed as though it could describe the other’s boy emotions.

“How is it? I didn’t lie to you, right? You don’t feel even a bit of pain at all, right?”

It went in so quickly and so easily like that? It can’t be! The difference in size is completely incomparable!

Bai Luo Yin turned his head around to look. As it turned out, it was just one finger.

Why the fuck are you showing off for when it’s just one finger huh?

Bai Luo Yin angrily twisted his head back, he could not help but to mentally complain about his own hardship.

It’s still too early, I just have to continue to endure it a bit longer!

When Gu Hai stretched out and inserted the second finger, he sensed a great deal of resistance. With this kind of obstruction opposing him, he patted then lightly slapped Bai Luo Yin’s ass several times, urging him to loosen up so that his muscle can relax and not push his fingers out.

Bai Luo Yin did not utter a single word as he gritted his teeth together tightly. To make matters worse, his body refused to cooperate or loosen up even the slightest.

Without any better option, Gu Hai restored to pouring some more lubricant on his hand. He increased the friction that he had on Bai Luo Yin’s still throbbing member, letting his finger tease the tip once a while as to keep him excited and stimulated. Taking advantage of the interval between Bai Luo Yin’s slow intake of air, he pressed his fingers in without any letup until it fully entered.

“How does it feel?”

Bai Luo Yin truthfully said, “It’s not really comfortable. Feels a bit swollen.”

Gu Hai was completely confidant in himself as he replied, “Don’t worry, it’ll be better in a moment.”

Along with the rhythm of his soothing breaths, his fingers slightly and slowly moved up and down against the warm wall that tightly encased it. It was quick, then it slowed down. This pace continued until Bai Luo Yin gradually became accustomed to this stimulant and the feeling of discomfort slowly lessened as well.

A strange and exotic kind of feeling welled up in his chest and gushed forth from within his scorching body. He couldn’t discern whether it was a comfortable feeling or not. But, at the very least, the taste and feeling of this kind of sensation was not difficult to endure.

A gentle breeze chose this moment to eddy over them, caressing them in its passing with the sweet smell of the lubricant.

All the while, Gu Hai was already fired up, his blood was boiling and racing at full speed. Every single time his finger slipped in, he could feel the tighten muscle smothering him. A familiar sense of pleasure emerged from within his memory, making him a become a bit impatient, he was itching to get on with it. He wanted to relive and taste that pleasurable feeling again, the one that beckoned him into ecstasy and dragged him into a death that was worthwhile.

No, this won’t do. I can’t be impatient. The book already said it, there’s still a finger missing. I must completely stretch it out.

With regards to someone like Gu Hai who is anxious and need to quicken things up, this was indeed a great test of endurance.

Feeling a bit swollen, Bai Luo Yin felt that it was somewhat unbearable, so he twisted his head around and said earnestly, “Can you take one out?”

A painful expression painted itself on Gu Hai’s face.

It was hard enough to squeeze it in, now you want me to pull it out once again. Are you trying to suffocate my precious little Hai Zi to death?

Are you trying to suffocate my precious little Hai Zi to death?

“Bare with it a little bit longer, it’ll quickly feel better.”

Gu Hai patiently ingratiated himself with little Yin Zi.

Finally, he was able to make this little fellow fully erected.

Two minutes later, all of his thoughtful and earnest preparations were in order.

Gu Hai slightly squinted his eyes and when he opened them again, his eyes were shimmering with excitement.

“Next you’ll witness a miraculous moment!”

[info title="Translator's clarification" icon="info-circle"]*1 You fucking greedy ass cat. All day, the only thing you know how to do is to eat. It would have been good if your fucking mouth was a bit smaller. Why must it be so big like that. Sooner or later, you’re going to die from getting so stuffed!

I wanted to explain Yin Zi’s thought here in case anyone doesn’t get it, he meant, “…. the only thing you know how to do is think about having s**. If your appetite toward *it lessen a bit, it would be good. But why must it be so big? You’re going to die from thinking about it too much!”[/info]


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