09/02/12

Di Inaasahang Pag-Ibig

By: Larry

Kabanata 2: Mga away-bati sa buhay pag-ibig.

Una sa lahat ngpapasalamat ako sa mga mambabasa sa blog na ito. Kung di dahil sa inyu walang taong ngbibigay ng insperasyun magsulat tungkol sa buhay nila. Higit sa lahat ang kaligayahan ng isang writer ay mabasa ang kwento nila kahit masama o maganda ang mga ganting tanaw ay syang nagpapahubog naming mga writer.

Este di ako writer gaya ng nasa isip mo. Well, sa lahat ng nakakabasa sa unang tagpo tungkol namin ng taong ngbibigay saya, ngiti at kiliti sa araw-araw kong buhay. Ang kwentong nasulat ko noon ay ito na ang karugtong. Kung naalala nyu pa ang "di inaasahang pagibig" na nasulat ko ay taos puso po akong ngpapasalamat sa nagustohan nyu ang unang pagsulat ko sa blog na ito.

Ang kwentong ito ay hango sa totoong pangyayari sa buhay ko. Hanggang ngayun d ko pa rin maintindihan kung ito na ba ang gusto ko habang ako'y nabubuhay.

Nasa 3rd year colleges na kami ngayun at nasa ibang department dahil iba ang korsong kinuha namin. Di maiwasan ang mga away-bati sa isang relasyun. Oo si Mark, ang Mark na nagbigay pabigat sa damdamin ko noon, pati din ngayun.

Noon ang mga away ay nauuwi sa mabagyung paniniig. Bakit nga ba? Kung nagaway kayu ng partner nyu, ano bang magandang sulotion? Nakakatawa man isipin pero mas makalimutan ang away kong sex. Oo sex ang sagot sa away ng magkarelasyun. Naiintindihan ko ang bawat sitwasyun naming dalawa ni Mark, maraming tukso at magdududa ang nangyayari sa buhay namin.

Unang tagpo naming dalwa ay maganda ang ending. Ngunit ngayun di ko malaman o mawari kong san nga ba hahantong ang ganitong relasyun. (same sex relationship).

Ako nga pala si louie. Di gaya ng gwapong nasa isip mo pero may angas naman. Nagmistulang upos ng sigarelyu ang buhay ko ngayun. Di ko maisip bakit ganito nalang ang pagnanais ko na makamit ang buhay ng masaya na walang balakid. Ngunit mali ako, ang buhay kung walang balakid. Napakaboring ng buhay mo. Etchos, pero totoo masarap mabuhay kung may pinaglalaban ka.

Sisimulan ko na.

Feb, 2012. Ito ang unang anibersaryo ng aming pagmamahalan ni Mark. Lingid sa kaalamn nya na kung bakit ko sya sinasamahan boung araw sa mga outdoors meeting nya. 2weeks din kami di ngkasama dahil subrang busy nya sa coffeshop na pinapamahala ng family nya. Naiinis ako kahit anong busy nya ngunit naghahanap ako ng isang segundo para sa kanya ngunit sya para wala lang. Yung bang kung nandyan ka yun lang ang time na maalala ka nya, eh kung wala, eh yun lng din wag ka ng umasa na naalala ka nya. Di ba ang sakit na ako lang ang nageexpect sa ganong relasyun. Eh dahil mahal ko sya. Tiniis ko lahat.

Pareho kami ni Mark di halatang mga pusong mamon. Makisig mga tindig namin at maraming nagkacrush sa amin na girl lalo na kay Mark. Ang lakas ng dating nya at ako ay napanganga kung tinitingnan ko sya habang naglalakad.

Nagtataka si Mark sa araw na yun. Bakit ang sweet ko sa kanya. Di ako napapagod sumama sa lakad nya. Eh dati rati'y nababadtrip ako sa mga lakad nya (eh puro namn lintik na Marketing na yan, di ko naman alam at iwanan nalang akong tanga kung saan d ako pwede makisawsaw sa mga kausap nya) pero sa araw na yun tiniis ko. Kasi nga anibersaryo namin. Love ko eh!!

Mark: Oi ang sipag natin ah!

Habang nagliligpit ako ng gamit nya. Sa panahong iyun alas 7pm ng gabi. At nasa apartment na kami ng tagpong iyun. Naiinis ako dahil d mn lang nya naalala ang araw na yun. Pero ako nagaantay kung kailan nya ako babatiin.

"Asus ngayun ka pa, eh mabait namn talaga ako sayu" sabi ko sabay kindat sa kanya.

"Oi parang may naaamoy ako ah! Na miss mo ko noh?" sabi nya sabay kiliti saking tagiliran

"Tumigil ka nga, sino bang gagong di mamimiss sayu" sabi ko sabay alis sa kamay nya

"Oi namiss nya ko!" sabi nya at nangungulit.

Talagang ganon si Mark, mahilig at masarap maglambing. Ang cute nyang tignan pag ganun na syang nagpapahina sakin.

"Tart, wala ka bang naaalala?" tanong ko.

"Ang alin?" paguusisa nya.

"Sa araw ngayun?"sabi ko.

"Ano bang araw ngayun dba friday?" sabay ngiti.

Naiinis ako kasi di nga nya naalala ang araw ng anibersaryo namin. Talagang nagaantay ako sa araw na yun tapos ganun ganun lang di nya maalala.

"Happy 1st aniversary" pagbati ko sa kanya.

"Huh! Aniversary? Ano yun?" sagot nya.

Naiinis ako at hinampas ko sya ng notebook sa araw nayun dahil di mn lang nya binigyang ng importansya ang araw ng pagiibigan namin.

"Talaga di mo alam. Oh ayan! (sabay bagsak ng notebook hawak ko at umalis na ako) akma ko ng buksan ang pinto upang umalis ay kinabig nya ako at niyakap dahilan di ako makaalis.

"Ano ka ba! Nagtatampo ka kaagad, sorry na, sorry po" pagsusumamo nya.

Lintik na ngiti yan bakit di ako makaalis sa kinatatayuan ko habang nakikita ko syang nakatitig sakin ng nakangiti.

"Ikaw kasi, d mo yun naalala ang panahong nagiyakan tayo sa backstage sa skol" sabi ko.

"Di ko yun nakakalimutan,yun ang araw na mahal ako ng taong mahal ko" sabi nya.

Dahil sa sinabi nya nawalan ako ng lakas para umalis. Napangiti nalang ako at nagulat sa sinabi nya.

"Aha! Alam ko na. Halika" sabi nya sabay hila sa kanang braso ko.

"Ano ba Tart, ito ka na namn mahilig sa supresa" sabi ko.

Pumasok kami sa kwarto niya. Pinatay ang ilaw at ini-on ang lampshade. Nagtataka ako sa tagpong iyun. Di namn sya ka-agrisibo pagdating sa kama pero iba ang nakita kong Mark sa gabi na yun.

"Tart, ano to?" pagtatakang sabi ko.

Tinulak nya ako sa kama at.

"Manood ka lang, para sayu to'" sabi nya.

Wala akong nagawa kundi pagmasdan anong ginagawa nya. Pumunta sya sa side table at doon nkalagay ang portable dvd nya. At sinalang nya ang cd. Natatawa ako kasi yung sound na sinalang nya ay yung sound na kung saan may scandal si katrina halili at hayden kho (alam nyu na anong sound yun?). Puwesto sya sa dulo ng kama. At nagsimulang umindayug sabay sa malasaganang musikang pinatugtug. Na nasaksihan ko, sumabay sa pagsayaw si Mark sa tugtug. Lalo akong nanghihina sa nasaksihan. Ang sarap nyang tingnan, sumasayaw na parang ngbebenta ng aliw sa malamundong pagnanasa. Nakangiti lang akong tiningnan ang ginawa ni Mark. Kagat labi akong ninanamnam ang bawat eksinang kasunod nyang gawin. Sinimulan nyang tinanggal ang polo. At halos lumuwa ang mata ko sa pagbabago ni Mark,may mga namumuong abs at may hubog narin ang pangangatawan nya na lalong nagpapasarap sa pagkatao nya. Hinuhubad nya ang bawat natira habang sumasayaw. Di ko mapigilan d maakit, d ko mapigilang d gustong tikman ang pagkaing nasa harap ngunit minabuti kong pagmasdan ang susunod na pangyayari. At ngayun hinubad na nya ang soot na longpants at nabulaga ako sa nakita. Parang ang Mark na nakilala ko noon ay nagbago na ngayun. Isang adan na ngbibigay saya sa aking buhay. Sumasayaw sya ala macho dancer ng nkabrief nalang. Di ko magawang di lumapit at lamparutin ang nakahaing saging saking harapan.

"Di ba bawal lumapit, sabi ko tumingin ka lang" sabi nya sabay ngiti sa kabi.

"Ang sarap mo kayang pagmasdan" sabi ko

Sinanib ko ang kanyang boung katawan. Hinalikan ng walang humpay na pagnanais. Hinawakan ang malabolang mansanas at sinapo ang malahiganting armas sa kanyang katauhan. "ahh" ang tanging tinig ang aking narinig hudyat na nagugustuhan nya ang aking ginawa. Pinagpatuloy ko lang lamparusin ang naghihimagsik na batota. Hinalikan sa leeg, pababa ng pababa habang hawak ko ng matigas nyang oten.

"Sa kama tayo" biglang sabi nya. At sinunud ko naman. At doon pinagpatuloy ko ang pagpapaligaya sa kanya. Lahat ginawa ko para maging masagana ang tagpong iyun. Pabilis ng pabilis. Hinigpitan. Nilamon. Ang unti unting nagbabadyang pagbulwak ng bulkan. Hinawakan nya ang ulo ko at naninigas ang mga binti. At namalayan ko lang na may mainit na likodong dumaloy saking lalamunan.

"Tart I love u" sabi ko.

"I love u more" sabi niya.

Maya-maya pa may inabot sya sakin ng munting kahon. Binuksan nya iyon at nakita ko ang dalawang bracelet. At sa ilalim nito may nakasulat "iloveu more Tart". Isang pares sa kanya at isang paris sa akin. Napakasaya ko sa gabing iyun na mahal ako ni Mark. Nagpapasalat ako sa kanya at naghahalikan kami. Matagal. Madiin at napakasarap.

Tumayo sya at nagpunta ng banyu upang maligo. Di ko mapigilan magpalabas ng mabilis sa mga naganap at munting panyulito ang aking pampahid sa mga umaalon kong tamod sa sahig.

"Tart labas tayu, drive tru gutom na ako" sabi nya ng nakatapis ng tuwalya paglabas ng banyu.

"Ako ok lang, tapos na kong kumain" pabiro kong sagot sabay ngiti sa kanya.

"Loko ka, mamaya may round 2, basta kumain muna tayu" sabi nya.

Ngiti lang ang ginanti ko sa kanya. Habang nasa parking area kami.

"Badtrip namn oh, magmotor nalang tayu" sabi niya.

"Ayus lang magmotor para mahangin, ano bang problema" sabi ko

"May humarang sa drive way, d pwede malabas si picachu" sabi nya

May mini-auto si Mark. At picachu ang pangalan nya nito. Basta nissan yun, wala akong idea about sa mga auto, bigay yun ng father nya nung nagkakota sila sa business na pinamahala nila kay Mark. Yung coffeshop. Politician family nila sa bayan namin.

Habang nilalakbay namin ang kahabaan ay napadpad kami sa mcdo. Sa tapat ng mcdo may gasuline station. Bigla kaming nakita ni rhea(ang xgf ni Mark).

"Mark how are you?" sabi ng girl,

Hello nandito kaya ako. Di man lang ako binati.

"Come on Mark, i have my friends over there" sabi ng girl.

Naiinis ako, walang atubiling sumama si Mark sa kanya at naiwan akong nakatayo sa side ng motor nya. "ang empokretang gagang ito di man lang ako niyaya" nasa isip ko sa gabing yun.

Almost half hour din akong naghihintay sa labas para abangan ang pagbalik ni Mark. Naiireta ako sa nangyari dahil ganun ganun lang di ako tinawag ni Mark o alukin man lang na papuntahin sa kanya at hinayaan lng akong nangisaw sa labas.

"Bat di ka pumasok?" tanong niya.

"Ihatid mo nalang ako sa amin, gusto ko ng magpahinga" sabi ko sabay dabog at abot sa helmet niya.

"Galit ka ba?" tanong niya

"Ay indi. Di ako galit, sino bang galit na halos matunaw na ako sa kahihintay sayu,dba?" sagot ko

"Sorry nagkaaberya lang, natagalan" sabi nya.

"Palusot ka pa" sabi ko

"Sige na ihatid mo na ako" sabi ko.

"Sayang tong nabili ko, good for 2 ito"sabi nya.

"Diba sabi ko tapos na akong kumain" sabi ko. Sa totoo lang di pa pero naiinis talaga ako

"Oi ano kaya kung dito natin gawin ang round 2" paglolokong sabi nya.

"Ano ka ba, wag ka ngang ganyan" sabi ko.

"Sige na sa bahay kana matulog. Tatawagan ko nanay mo. Ok ba?" sabi nya.

Wala akong nagawa kundi sunod-sunuran nya. Talagang nanghina mga tuhod ko kapag nakita ko syang nakangiti sakin at naglalambing. Oo alam ng family ko ang tungkol kay Mark at alam ng family nila ang tungkol sa akin. ( we're just only friend ). Hahaha alangan namang lover, jojombagin ako ng tatay ko at mawawalan ng mana si Mark. Hahaha

Kumain kami magkasabay ni Mark at nagsusubuan din minsan. Sa piling ko kay Mark ay parang kaming dalawa lang ang tao sa mundo, lahat ng problema ay nawawala at puro saya nalang ang nananaig.

Natapos ang taon ng aming 2nd year college. At naging summer na rin. Di kami ngkasama sa summer time ni Mark dahil nasa maynila sila with his family nagbakasyun. 1month din iyon. Napakasakit isipin ngunit wala akong magawa kundi tanggapin. At may cellphone naman daw at lagi lang magtxt o tawag sa isat-isa. Pero iba talaga kung nandyan kayu magkasama. Dahil nga wala si Mark, inaaliw ko nalang ang sarili ko sa pagdodota. Oo adik ako sa dota ngayon. Hahaha. Minsan nga nakalimutan ko ng magreply sa mga txt ni Mark at minsan nga d ko na naalala yung pagkabagot dahil wala siya. Natatawa na nga lang ako sa kantang "dota o ako" ( yung pipiliin mo yung syuta mo over dota. Hahaha.

Naging madalang na ang text ni Mark sakin. Pero. Ganun talaga kami. Magtitixt lang kung free time, kahit im expecting too much pero dapat tanggapin na may sariling buhay din pahalagahan si Mark. (kahit ikaw na bumabasa, d lahat ng time ng syuta mo ay kailangan sayu) intindihin ang bawat sitwasyun.

May, 2012 umuwi si Mark sa lugar namin. Napakasaya ko sa nabalitaan na uuwi sya. Oo nakibalita ako sa coffeshop dahil madalas ako doon pag weekend. At si james ang waiter ang naging dahilan kung bakit alam ko na uuwi sya. Dba ang sakit, d man lang sya ngsabi sakin na uuwi na sya. Kasi sabi ni james narinig daw nya usapan ng manager niya na kailangan daw ang present ng bozz nya. Masaya na may halong sakit dahil d ako sinabihan. Pero masya ako na makita sya ulit.

Araw gabi inaabangan ko talaga ang cp ko kung may text ba galing sa kanya pero ni isa wala. Mahirap magexpect, ang sakit na di mo maintindihan. Pero kailangan kong maging matatag sa bawat pangyayari. Dumating na ang araw ng enrolment sa skol. At napaaga ang pagenrol ko kasi nagkataong nanalo yung tatay ko sa sabong( yung manok derbi). Dun ko nalaman na nandito na pala sya samin kasi nakita ko sya mismo sa registrar office. Di ako nagpapakita sa kanya, nagtatago ako sa bullitin board para matakpan kung sino mang tao ang nandun. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat lagi parin akong ngtitxt sa kanya kung anong ginagawa ko. Pero d ko sinabi sa kanya na nakita ko sya sa skol.

At last txt ko sa kanya na "mag gimik kami ngayun ng mga barkada ko sa "rhekos" sabi ko sa txt. At nagreply namn sya na " ingat Tart, loveu". Naiinis ako na para bang ang daling sabihin nya mga katagang yun ng di man lang nya pinaramdam sakin. At di man lang nya alam gaano ako nagtiis para sa kanya.

8pm sa isang bar, talagang napamura ako sa prisyo. Pero ayus lang dahil taya ng kaibigan ko. Di nila alam kung ano pagkatao ko. Mga classmate ko sila noon hanggang ngayun.

Habang papasok ako ng bar, may namalayan akong sasakyan na kapareho kay Mark, inisip ko lang na baka hindi sa kanya yun. Nagsasaya kaming pumasok sa bar.

"Pre yan si erich, kaibigan ni randy, may gusto yan sayu" sabi ng classmate kong lalaki(francis)

"Ganun ba?" sabi sabay ngiti.

"Oo, pre ang totoo nyan, kapag sumama ka daw samin ngayun, manglilibre sya" sabi ni francis.

Talagang di ako mahilig sa mga ganung eksena. Di mahilig sa gimik kunbaga. Talagang nabadtrip lang ako sa nangyari sa amin ni Mark. Kaya napasama nalang akong maggimik.

"Magvideoke muna tayo" sabi ni randy.

"Wooooooo" taraaaa" sabay sabay sabi.

Tang ina ang mahal pala dun. Naka vip room ang videoke at 500/hour ang bayad. Tang ina isang linggo allowance ko na yun. Dun ko napagtanto na d ako bagay sa lugar na yun.

Sinimulan na namin ang kantahan at pakunting kunting tagay lang. Kinanta ko ang paboritong kanta ni Mark at ang theme song namin "makita kang muli". Lahat sigawan at napawow. Kasi di sa pagmamayabang, may boses akong masasabi kong biniyayaan ng panginoon. Nagtagal at lumaon, may amats na akong nararamdaman. Ang lakas ng ininum namin "gilbeys with lemonade". Grabe ang tapang. Pero wala akong inuurungan sa panahon yun dahil gusto kung maibsan ang sakit ng aking nararamdaman.

"Pre time out muna, cr mode muna ako" sabi ko.

"Teka pare, alam mo ba ang daan?" sabi ni randy.

"Sasamahan nalang kita louie" pagpresenta ni erich upang samahan ako.

"Ayus lang ako. At

Natumba ako sa harap ni erich upang nayakap ko sya ng marahan.

"Anong ayus, tingnan mo nga d ka na makatayo" sabi ni erich.

At sinamahan nga ako ni erich patungong cr. Sa mga oras na yun kahit may amats ako, d ko parin malilimutan ang mga nangyari. May namataan akong isang lalaki na kahawig ni Mark, ngunit di ko initindi yun sapagkat kailangan nakong umihi. Dahil sa di maaninag ang histura dahil medyu madilim, alam kong nakatingin sya sakin. Pumasok ako ng cr at diretso sa urinal. At nabigla akong may lalaking nagsalita sa likod ko.

"Who's with you, yung girl sa labas, syuta mo ba yun?" sabi ng lalaki

Di ko nagawang sumagot kasi pagharap ko ay si Mark ang tumamdad sa akin.

"Oi Mark, kamusta?" sabi ko. Gusto ko syang yakapin at halikan pero di pwede may tao sa cr sa mga oras na yun. At kailngan may respeto din ako sa kanya.

"I'm okay" maikling sagot niya.

"Sino kasama mo?" tanong ko

"I'm with my girl friend" sagot niya.

Nanlomo ako sa narinig. Parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig. Nagiinit at nagngitngit ang aking pamingin. Walang akong nagawa kundi.

"Ahh good, im happy for u Mark. Wish u all the best" sabi ko sabay labas sa cr. Nangilid mga luha ko, d ko napigilang umiyak sa mga sandaling iyun. D namn halos makita kung umiiyak ba ako dahil disco light ang naging ilaw dun.

"Pare ok louie?" sabi ni erich habang inalayan ako sa paglakad.

Kinabig ko si erich at hinalikan. Mainit. Masarap. Matamis na halik ang ginawa ko. Walang nagawa si erich kundi sumunod sa agos ng panakaw na halik. Bagkus lumaban pa sya at niyakap ako. Alam ko sa mga sandaling iyun nakita kami ni Mark. Ang gusto kong mangyari ay masaktan din sya sa mga pinaggagawa nya sakin. Talagang masakit na halos d akoa makahinga sa aking narinig ("girlfriend").

Natigil ang aming paghahalikan ng nasagi ng waiter ang mesa at natapon sakin ang tubig. (iwan ko kung tubig ba yun o wine).

"Syit ano bang problema mo?" sabi ko na may galit

"Sorry sir, talagang aksidente po, bigla kasing may tumulak sakin" sabi ng waiter.

Yung puntong galit na galit ka pero sa nakita mo kung sinong tao ang tinutukoy ng waiter na bumunggo sa kanya, eh talagang nawala yung galit ko at ngumiti nalang.

"Tara na." sabi ko kay erich.

Bumalik kami sa gropo at masayang tinapos ang tawanan at kwentuhan. Ngunit dahil sa lamig kailangan na akong mauna umuwi dahil basang basa ako dahil sa nangyari na nabuhusan ako ng tubig. At umoo naman ang gropo.

Lumabas ako ng bar. At naglakad pa 20meters away from it para magaabang ng tricycle pauwi sa amin. Dahil malayo ang sa amin, walang ni isa maghatid sa akin kaya napilitan kung maglakad lakad muna.

Habang nilalakbay ko ang sideway, may nararamdaman akong may sumusunod sa akin. Pero paglingun ko wala naman kaya patuloy ako sa paglalakad. At narating ko ang isang basketball court, walang tao ngunit sa gilid may naiwang bola kaya naglaro ako. Tapon dito, tapon don, shot dun, shot dito. Di ko na mabilang kung ilang try d ko mashot ang bola at nagsisigaw na akong "putang ina mo Mark, ang sakit sakit na. Manhid ka ba ha! Manhid ka ba"

At laking gulat ko may anino akong namataan sa gawing kanan ko. At lumabas ang isang lalaki.

By: Helicobacter

Halos mabingi ang tenga ko sa sigaw niya sa mobile phone, “ Nasaan ka?!” ang tanong niya sa aking pasigaw pa din. “ Pauwi na ako sa bahay namin, di na kita ginising kasi…” di ko na natapos ang sinasabi dahil bigla siyang sumabat at sinabing “ Bumalik ka dito ngayon na!” pasigaw niyang utos sabay binaba ang phone. Medyo may takot akong nararamdaman nung mga panahong yun, iniisip ko kung may nagawa ba akong pagkakamali o may nasira ba akong gamit niya. Inisip kong huwag ng bumalik pero may parte sa puso kong ninanais siyang makitang muli . Kaya kahit na takot ay sumakay akong muli ng pampasaherong dyip upang bumalik sa bahay nila. Bukas na ang gatenila kaya pumasok na ako. May uwang na kaunti sa mismong pintuan ng bahay at nakita kong may tao na pala sa may first floor siguro ay nasa kusina dahil parang nagluluto ito. Kumatok ako upang magbigay galang at dagli naming lumipat ang taong nasa bandang kusina , habang papalapit ay namumukhaan ko siya…. Si Romeo pala ang taong nanduon at may ginagawa sa kusina. Medyo tumibok ng mabilis ang puso ko,hindi ko alam kung sa takot o dahil sa muli ko siyang nasilayan. Pagbukas ng sliding door na kahoy ay bumungad sakin ang isang matiounong lalaking naka basketball short at t-shirt na kulay asul. Ngumiti ako sa kanya at ngiting pabalik din ang ginanti niya at sumenyas na pumasok na at tumugon naman ako.
Mas lalo ko nasilayan ng mabuti ang bahay nila kasi gabi na ako nakarating duon kagabi kaya di ko na nakit ang mismong first floor dahil pinaakyat na niya ako sa second floor ng bahay kung nasaan ang kuwarto niya kagabi lamang. Sobrang ganda ng bahay nila ang sala at sofa nila ay mukhang mamahalin at may divider silang salamin na naghihiwalay sa isa pang sofa set at malapit duon ang kusina.
May dalawang banyo at isang kuwarto sa malapit sa kusina, Pinaupo niya ako sa may dining area na gawa sa mamahaling kahoy ang lamesa naman ay salamin din. May nakahaing itlog, bacon, hotdog at mga tinapay na ibat ibang klase may loaf,croissant, at burger ban. “ Pasensiya ka na sakin kanina ha” yun ang unang salitang narinig ko bago siya muli pumunta sa kusina at mukhang may kukunin muli, napaisip ako bakit ganun ang reaksiyon na kanina. Bumalik siya ng nakangiti at may dalang isang serving plate at puno ng fried rice.” Rice ba o tinapay ang bresakfast mo sa umaga?” ang tanong niya. “ Kahit ano” ang sagot ko..kahit siya pwede sa isip isip ko hehehe.. “ Inilagay niya ang plato sa lamesa at tumabi sakin. “ Galit kaba sa akin ?” pabalik kong tanong. “ Aaminin ko kanina OO, nagulat kasi ako wala ka na pala di ka man lang nagpaalam” ang sagot niya. “ Di na ako nakapagpaalam kasi tulog na tulog ka na pag balik ko sa room mo” sabay ngumisi pa akong kaonti, pero parang di siya masaya sa naging tugon ko. “ Ayaw ko kasi na iniiwan ako ng walang paalam, pakiramdam ko daig ko pa ang hostes pag katapos gamitin ay iniiwan, buti pa nga sila may paalaman pero sa akin kanina parang iniwan mo lang ako ng basta basta” tugon niya, na may lungkot sa tono ng boses niya. Di ko naman naisip ang mga bagay na yun gusto ko lang siyang makatulog ng maayos ,yun lang. “ Sorry. If you felt bad. I did not mean to hurt you, gusto ko lang na makatulog ka ng maayos at yung nangyari kagabi sorry di ko…” pinahinto na ulit ako sabay sabing “ Kain na tayo wala na yun, nagluto ako ng breakfast di ko kasi alam kung ano gusto mo kaya pagpasensiyahan mo na” medyo kinilig ako. sobra kasing sweet niya , pinagtimpla pa niya ako ng hot chocolate drink with mallows. Yun na siguro pinakamasarap na breakfast ko, masarap ang luto niya, pero kahit naman di masarap kakainin ko pa din malamang yun.. Ano ba itong nararamdaman ko kay Romeo, Mahal ko na siguro siya, pero di ko alam kung ano ba ang meron kami? Sobra kasing bilis ng lahat ng pangyayari. Nagulat ako nang hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at niyaya akong umakyat papunta sa kuwarto ay kaagad niya akong hinubaran at hinimod ang aking katawan ng kanyang dila. Napapaungol ako sa sarap na dulot nito. Napakahusay ng kanyang dila na parang patusok sa lahat ng parte na masayaran nito ay parang may kuryenteng bumabalot sa akin. Di ko matangihan ang bawat pagulos niya. Hinubad niya ang short ko at brief, simulang laruin ag tayong tayo kong alaga. Dinilaan niya ang butas ng ulo ng titi ko na may pauna ng katas. OOOOHHH, SARAP, pagungol ko.. hawak hawak niya ang pwetan ko at sinubo ng biglaan ang hindig na hindig kong titi. Medyo naduwal siya at natawa ako, tumingin siya sa akin at may pagbabantang tingin, natahimik ako at bumaba ang kanyang dila sa itlog ko “ shit…tanging nasambit ko sa kiliting dulot nito. Nilawayan niya ito at sobrang init hinubad ko ang t-shit niya at pinatayo siya ako naman ang humalik sa leeg niya at tenga,,, ungol siya ng ungol habang ginagalugad ko ang tenga niya gamit ang aking dila. Ang aking dalawang kamay naman ay nilalaro ang dalawa niyang dibdib lalo na ang utong niya . Tinulak niya ako at napahiga sa kama niya. Naghubad siya ng short at pumaibaba wsakin. Kitang kita ko ang tigas niyang titi. Itinapat sa mukha ko at alam kong gusto niyang isubo koi to nilaro ko ag itlog niya at muli siya napaigtad siguro ay nakikiliti siya, pinkish ang ulo ng titi niya pati ang itlog niya kakula din yun ng utong niya .sinipsip ko ang ulo ng titi niya medyo nasaktan siya pero di ako tumigil. Napahiga siya at sinimulan kong ibuka ang pwetan niya at muli kong nakita ang bilugan niyang pwet at pinkish na butas lalo akong nalibugan dinilaan ko ang butas at napasinghap siya sa kiliti nilawayan ko ito at dinudungol dungol ng aking tigas na tigas na dila hinimod ko ang singit niya na maputi parang nililinis ito at puro ungol lang ang naririnig ko, dinilaan ko ang itlog niya pataas hanggang papunta sa butas niya at sarap na sarap siya . Akma kong ipapasok ang daliri ko sana ay bigla siyang umiwas at pumaibabaw sakin, ayaw niya talaga ipagalaw ang butas niya sa isip ko. Jinakol niya ako at ambilis ng kamay niya sarap na sarap ko nilaro ng dila niya ang ulo habang jinajakol ako at naramdaman ko lalabasan na ako pumipaldit ang madaming katas sa katawan ko at ang iba ay sa kobre kama at sa kanyang kamay 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, putok yun at ng tumigil ay nagulat ako at nilalaro na ang butas nito at dinilaan, nakiliti ako pero di siya huminto, tingas na tigas ulit ito at muli niyang sinubo ang sarap sarap ng pakiramdam pakiramdam ko ay lalabasan ako ulit kaya hinawakan ko ulo niya at kinantot katot ko bibig niya sa sobrang sarap ay nilabasan akong muli sa bibig niya. Nagulat ako dahil akala ko ay wala na akong ilalabas first time ko na magawa yun at ang sarap pala. Napahiga ako at sobrang pagod ay nakatulog ako , di na ako nakapasok sa school at madami na din miss called galing kay mama. Umuwi akong lupaypay at parang magkakatrangkaso pero may ngiti sa aking labi.. Pero may tanong pa din sa aking isip kung ano ba kami? Ano bang meron sa aming dalawa? Bakit parang napapamahal na ako kay Romeo na dati ay Arogante at mayabang sa paningin ko? Tama ba itong nadarama ko? Nagpasya akong magtatapat ng feelings sa kanya…Pero kaya ko kaya?
May organized party para sa College of Nursing at lahat ng year level ay invited to attend. Medyo formal ang party at di ako masyado komportable sa ganuon klaseng party. Bukod sa di ako sanay magsuot ng formal attire, di ako mahilig sa party kahit na party ng mga kaibigan ay di ko pinupuntahan at nagdadahilan na lang na pagod o may lakad. But this time I had to attend kasi ginawa akong part ng committee sa registration at head ako nito so I don’t have a choice but to attend the said party. But deep within I also thought I could say my true feelings to Romeo on this night, it will be a good timing sa tingin ko so I attend the pary. Sa registration kami nakaasssign so kami ang unang makakakita ng student that will attend the party. Hinihintay ko siyang dumating dahil matagal din siyang di nagpaparamdam kahit na nagpapamiscol ako uso pa kasai nun ang 5 seconds no charge col o sms kaya lang ay di niya magawang magreply or to call back..
May paparating na mga kalalakihan sa doorway at nararamdaman ng puso ko na parating na siya kinakabahan ako pag dating niya duon. Bagay na bagay sa kanya ang formal attire na suot niya. Para akong nakakita ng artista, huminto ang paligid parang siya lang ang nakikita ko, di ko naririnig ang mga ingay sa paligid tanging siya lang ang tuon ng isip at puso ko. Para akong agilang gustong dumakit ng daga na talagang nakatuon lang paningin niya sa pain na gustong gusto niyang lapain. Huminto ang pagpapantasya ko nang hiningi niya ang stub para sa food at number ng table assigned sa kanya. “ Sa table 12 kayo” hiya kong sagot sabay abot ng stub. “ Thank you.. nice attire JC “ sabi niya habang papalayo ng desk. Talagang pinaghandaan ko ang gabing ito, humingi talaga ako ng pera sa parents ko para lang makabili ng magandang damit, I really wanted this night to be special for us, excited at kaba ang nararamdaman ko natuwa ako na napansin niya ang effort ko but he looked more so stunning and handsome that night.
Natapos ang party hinahanap ko siya dahil di ko siya masolo, nakapalibot sa kanya ang kanyang mga ka block mates na sila JM at Robel at di ako makahanap ng magandang timing to approached him. When I saw him going to the bathroom , I took the chance na kausapin siya hinantay ko siyang lumabas ng restroom. “ Romeo can we talk?” sabi ko na nanlalamig na.” Sure, what is it about? May problem ba?” Di ko masabi dahil madaming tao ang labas masok sa restroom. Nakahalata ata siya at hinila niya ako palabas ng Ball Room kung saan ginanap ang party, naglakad kami palabas papunta sa beach side ng resort na ginanapan ng party. Halos kami lang ang tao sa beach side, napakaromantic ng gabi ang ganda ng buwan at mga bituin. Saktong sakto sa plano kong magtapat sa kanya. Umupo kami sa buhanginan at siya naman ay naghubad nan g suot niyang coat at shoes kaya ganun din ang ginawa ko. Habang humahampas ang alon sa mga paa namin. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko, pinahahawak niya ang kanyang alaga sa akin na tigas na tigas na. Nagiinit na ako ng mga oras na yun, Tumapat ang mukha niya sa mukha ko. Di ako makakilos parang na stroke ako. Hinalikan niya ako ng madiin, parang miss na miss niya ako patuloy kong nilalaro ang alaga niya ng kamay ko , hinahalikan niya ako sa leeg at di ko napigilan sarili ko “ Romeo, I think Im fallin for you.” Bulong ko sa kanya. Natigil siya sandali, napatingin sa dagat at biglang nagsabi “ Sorry, this is my fault” sabi niya. Nagulat ako but I want him to elaborate it. “ What do you mean?” pagtataka kong sagot. “ Hindi ko gustong mafall ka sakin, wag mo akong seryosohin…” natulala ako samandali, Ano pala ang gusto niyang mangyari sa amin? Laro lang pala ang lahat ng ito, hindi ko naramdaman na he was just playin around. Parang may kumukurot sa puso ko ng mga oras na y un. Ang sakit sakit, pero walang gustong lumabas na salita sa aking bibig. Siguro nga kasalanan ko, kasalanan kong minahal ko siya. Kasalanan ko, nararamdaman ko tumulo ang mga luha sa mata ko. Tumayo ako at lumakad palayo sa beachside. “ Sorry JC , IM SO SORRY! “ pasigaw niyang sinasabi habang papalayo ako. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ako lumabas ako ng resort at hindi ko ko alam saan ako pupunta,parang nahihiya akong bumalik sa party di kasi humihinto ang pagtulo ng luha ko. Naglalakad akong nakapaa lang nakalimutan ko na ang sapatos ko sa beachside lubak lubak ang daan,pero di ko nararamdaman ang sakit sa paa ng matatalim na bato sa aking pagapak. Mas masakit sa dibdib parang sasabog na ang sakit. Sinasabi ng isip ko na wala akong karapatang masaktan, wala akong dapat maramdaman dahil wala namang namamagitan sa amin pero iba ang nararamdaman ng puso ko. Sa anatomy and physiology ,one of our professor thought us that the brain dictates the feelings, heart is simply a chamber that pump bloods throughout the body . Pero bakit kapag nasasaktan ang tao dahil sa pag-ibig di sumasakit ang ulo bagkus ang puso. Sana di ko siya nakilala, di ako sana ganito ngayon tulala at nasasaktan. Halos 3 hours kong nilakad mula resort hangang bahay namin. Naligo ako at nagbihis ng mahulog ang mobile phone ko sa bulsa ng pantalon ko ang daming misscol ni Romeo sa akin “ Nasaan ka na ba? Punta ka sa house ngayong gabi” yun ang huling sms niya sa akin. Di ko na nagawang sumagot pa. pinatay koi to nahiga at sobrang pagod ng isip, katawan at puso ko pumikit ako sandal at nagdasal n asana bukas wala na itong lahat. Wala na ang sakit ng dulot ng pagkabigo sa pag-ibig.

By: anonymous

Hello po mga ate! hindi ko talaga inaasahang mag-share na isa sa mga pinaka-erotic sexcapades ko sa blog na ito. Kasi naman ako ay talagang pribado at malihim na beki. sa totoo nga lang ako ay nasa closet pa rin o di pa out kahit ako ay lampas 30 na. Anyway naisip ko naman na anonymous posting naman eto kaya bakit hindi? pampalipas oras na din at saka dati kasi may ambisyon din ako na maging isang Xerex Xaviera. Hahahah, biro lang (asan na pala sya, tama ba pagkatanda ko sa pangalan nya?). Seriously now, gusto ko lang naman talagang makaganti doon sa iba na nagshare ng kwento nila at talagang nalibugan ako at napagparausan ko din. marami beses na lol. so i'm being charitable ika nga. siguro kahit isa man lang sa reader ay maantig ng aking kwento at mapagparausan na eh masaya no ako di ba, lol. talagang naenganyo lang ako ng maraming iba dito na nagbahagi ng kanilang maiinit na karanasan. teka tama na ang mahabang pasakalye at simulan na po natin ang aking kwentong kalibugan...

Una po, Amerikana ako lol, as in pinay na naging citizen ng US of A. O di ba sosyal? (mabiro lang ako hehehe) Ako ay totoong pinoy, na pinanganak at lumaki sa pilipinas na pinalad lang talaga sa halong swerte, pawis, kasipagan sa trabaho, angkin talino (kahit kaunti) , at right timing ay napadpad , naging immigrant dito sa land of milk and honey. maraming taon na rin ako dito naninirahan at paminsan minsan ay bumibisita rin naman sa ating bansa. duon sa may interesado tungkol sa physical appearance ko, ako ay matangkad ,
slim at nag-gym din naman, maputi at masasabi kong di naman pangit lol. meron nga din akong admirers both guys and girls pero ako ay hindi Bi kundi 100% na bakla lol. ang nagdala sa akin dito ay sa linya ng trabaho napili ko na ayaw ko ng banggitin kung ano baka mabisto pa lol. at opo fan ako ng site na ito kahit nga ilang libong milya ang layo ko. kasi mahilig talaga ako sa mga gay erotic stories. kaya pag-type kong magpantasya na mga kalahi natin eh dito agad ako nagpupunta at madadalas nauuwi sa pagmamasturbate hehehe. isa pang lihim ko - ay virgin pa po ako ng napadpad ako dito, talagang pure and demure, as in wala pa kong natikman native na burat at tamod hahaha. pero syempre alam ko na ako ay isang beki at born cocksucker (though not yet a practicing one hahaha). marami rin akong natipuhan sa mga kalahi natin ng nandyan pa ako kaya lang i never let myself partake na tikman sila. siguro dahil prioridad ko kasi ang career ko at talagang inambisyon kong makapag-abroad talaga. so no time for sexcapeds for me unfortunately. Pero ang type ko at really attracted ako doon ba sa mga blue collar worker, o yun bang mga laborer, or even tipong tambay, siga, o even maton lol. siguro dahil na rin lalaking-laki ang gusto kong dating ng isang guy. dahil im quite malamya and mahinhin, so i want the opposite in my men - yun bang rough, masculine, and very virile. maybe because of that when i initially got here sa amerika, what immediately caught my lustful eyes ay mga negro or black guys lol. lalo na yun magaganda ang katawan and exudes animalistic manliness. saka di ba generally ang perception sa mga black ay thugs or hoodlum, or tipong di sila gagawawa ng matino. kaya ayun sila ang pantasya ko. sa totoo lang po ang isa sa wildest fantasies ko ever nang bago-bago pa lang ako dito eh eto: papasukin ang aking apartment ng mga young black guys tapos gagahasain ako hahaha. magnanakaw actually sila pero nadatnan nila ako nag-iisa pala sa apartment. tapos nang ma-corner nila ako they notice I was looking hungrily at their crotches even though takot na takot ako. they will then get the idea that im a cocksucker and will rape me orally. They will force their big juicy black cocks (di ba yun a stereotype nila, na big-dicked sila generally which is really true naman, yummy lol) on my mouth which i will devour hungrily. teka rape ba kung more than willing ako? hahahahah! Unfortunately hindi pa nangyari yun fantasy kung iyan (unfortunately daw o hahahahak) . so you get the idea that i really am very turned on by that image of a masculine black guy kaya nga when i see one especially a hottie which thankfully eh maraming supply dito talagang nalilibugan agad ako at gusto ko bang lumuhod sa harapan nila ng walang belo at kainin ng buong buo ang kanilang jumbo hotdog made of black meat (hindi white meat, harharhar!) of course it goes without saying na i prefer straight guys. or at least really straight acting dudes. i got turned off kasi kung malamya din sila like me. admittedly its very rare that a straight black guy would make patol sa isang bakla ano. so most of the time hangan tingin lang ako. but salamat sa internet, that one obstacle can sometimes be hurdled every once in a blue moon. so isang gabi blue ang moon (lol), nagsusurfing ako sa internet website na Craigslist. FYI lang about this website - kasi I think its still not that popular dyan sa atin pero dito its very popular and widely used. its one of top internet site here in the usa. imagine the sunday manila bulletin na puno ng classified ads. so its like that but internet version instead of a newspaper. then may section din sila personal - you know - for hookups, dating etc. so my strategy is always to browse the section M4W (meaning men for woman) - basically eto yun ads ng mga horny guys naghahanap ng nsa sex sa mga girls at that very moment lol. pero sa totoo lang its rare naman that these guys would get response from real girls so doon ako tumitiempo - i'm being oportunista kung baga. pero i will tell them upfront though na bakla ako at if ever kung libog na libog talaga sila at wala girls na nag-rereply sa kanila - i will gladly offer my mouth to give them relief. hahahah! i would try to convince them that a mouth is a mouth. o di ba lol. honestly 99.99% of these straight guys will not even reply or if they do - usually just to tell me NO. so talagang ala-tsamba lang. saka syempre maraming fake or manloloko rin lang or yung iba naman eh mga hustler or prostitute. so bihira talaga ako makatiempo na real regular straight guy who is just horny that night. saka picky rin naman ako noh. i prefer hot and fit young guys of any race really (im not a racist hahah). but of course like most gays eh mababaw ako, i dont like old and fat guys. pero my top choice is syempre black dude na kaya lang talaga ay napakadalang mahanap. nitong gabi na ito, i saw an ad of a black guy with a picture showing his big black dick and some part of his body. its really huge and so yummy so of course nahalina agad ako lol. saka mukhang maganda ang katawan base sa picture. so naghahanap sya ng girls for a nsa hookup. he's ad said hes 23. hmmm he really is my type and mostly dahil naman talagang katakam takam ang malaking at delicious looking niyang burat hehehe. his ad has no face picture of course - its not common to put your face - dapat discreet syempre. ako naman as long as mukhang masarap yun cock at mukhang mabubusog ako, game ako hahahah. so ayun i answer his ad - offering my naglalaway ng mouth if he can't find a girl kung pwede tsupain ko sya lol. as if! blow job lang naman kung ok sa kanya - just to bring relief of his urgings. i assume he wont reply but just a few minutes later i got an email from him right away. pero ayun naduling yata sa pag-basa ng email ko at akala pala eh babae ako. when i told him na beki ako he politely said no. but at least he replied and i felt na medyo may chance yata dahil sumagot sya sa email ko. hmmm. so i let it go pero na-curious lang ako talaga sa kanya. anyway one way i've been doing to find out more about a guy is just by his email address. you can learn a lot about him by just googling it di bah. so i did just that. at ayun nga, hindi sya peke at legit talaga dahil mukhang real name pa nga yata nya ginamit nya sa email nya. I even got to see his facebook account. and what more i found out that sundalo pala sya! he's wearing his uniform in a lot of his pictures and in some may hawak pang baril! eh weakness ko rin nga mga military guys so he's probably my ultimate dream guy lol. and he is not bad looking at all. hes not a pretty boy but very manly and sexy. so yummy at talagang lalaking lalaki ang dati tapos nga sundalo pa. naisip ko na sayang talaga sya kung makawala pa hahaha. as if
may chance no pero sabi ko sa sarili ko ano ba naman mawawala kung email ko uli sya. kaya nagbakasakali ako uli and emailed him again trying my darnest to convince him lol. im really being very persistent at pinagmamayabang kong pang magaling ako mag-blow job,that I will give him his best bj ever at wala
syang makikita babae that night anyway so i'm his next best choice. he realize na talagang gusto gusto ko syang tsupain. aba finally pumayag din ang negro! siguro dahil libog na libog na rin talaga sya at gustong makapagparaus. o siguro napagod lang yata sa kakulitan ko hahahaha. so yehey naka jackpot ako! para kong nanalo sa lotto! ....

Itutuloy

By: ythankyou

    Hello po sa lahat ng mga mambabasa ng blog na ito, sana po ay magustuhan niyo itong istorya ko. Ako nga pala si Francis, 21, hindi gwapo, hindi maputi at lalong hindi gaanong katangkaran. Pero masasabi kong may maibubuga ako dahil scholar ako sa pinapasukan kong unibersidad sa Bulacan. Kilala ako sa amin dahil sa taglay ko raw na kabaitan sa kapwa, dahil nga isa akong sakristan sa aming lugar. Minsan nga tinatawag pa nila akong Mr. Congeniality dahil halos lahat ng makasalubong ko ay binabati ko o kaya ay nginingitian ko.

    Minsan, habang naglalakad ako sa may palengke ay may nakita akong isang lalaki, maputi, cute pero di rin ganong matangkad (kasingtangkad ko lang din halos na mga nasa 5”2 lang). Parang bago lang siya sa aming lugar kasi hindi ko siya madalas makita. Nilapitan ko si Mang Manny na kasama nung maputing lalaki. “Magandang umaga po Mang Manny, kamusta po kayo?” bati ko sa kanya. “Ayos lang naman ako Francis, heto at naghahanda dahil birthday bukas ni Ruth (misis ni Mang Manny). Alam mo naman yun, magtatampo kapag walang handa,” pabiro niyang sinabi. “Ah ganun po ba? Eh sino naman po yang kasama niyo na mukang artistahin?” tanong ko sa kanya. “Siya nga pala si Marvin, pinsan ni Kevin (kababata ko) galing Manila. Nagbabakasyon lang dito sa amin dahil isang linggong wala ang mga magulang niya dahil sa trabaho.” ani Mang Manny. Dahan-dahan kong inilapit ang kamay ko sa kanya para kamayan at upang pormal na makapagpakilala. “Francis nga pala,” sabay taas ng kilay at saka ko siya kinamayan. Ngumiti lang siya sa akin at parang napansin ko na kinindatan niya ako. Medyo malambot ang kamay niya kaya ang sarap hawakan. Hindi ko namalayan na halos 10 segundo na pala kaming magkahawak ng kamay, pero hindi naman niya inaalis yung kamay niya na para bang gusto niya ring hawakan ang kamay ko.
Matapos nun ay nagyaya nang umuwi si Mang Manny sa kanila dahil naghihintay daw ang kaniyang misis. “Tayo na Kevin at marami pa tayong ihahanda para bukas.” aya ni Mang Manny. Tumugon lamang si Kevin ng “Opo Tito!” Ngunit bago pa man sila makalayo sa paningin ko ay tumalikod si Kevin at tumingin sa akin, ngumiti at saka sinabing, “Punta ka sa amin bukas ha! Hintayin ka namin nila Tito at Tita.” Sumagot naman ako ng medyo pasigaw dahil may kalayuan na sila sa kinatatayuan ko, “Oo naman, syempre andun kami nila Mama,” sabay taas ng kilay.

Mag-aalas syete na ng gabi ng makauwi ako bahay. Nadatnan kong naghahapunan na sila Mama at mga kapatid ko. Inaya ako ni Mama na kumain na at baka ako pa daw ang paghugasin niya ng mga plato. Kaya dumiretso na ako sa upuan ko at saka kumain kahit na hindi pa ako naghuhugas ng kamay. Masarap ang ulam nung gabing iyon, sinigang na hipon at saka inihaw na tilapia. Mahilig kasi si Mama sa seafoods at kadalasang hindi kumakain ng baboy dahil nakakahigh blood daw. Tapos na silang lahat kumain at ako nalang ang natira sa lamesa. “Oh, pano ba yan kuya, ikaw ang nahuli kaya ikaw maghuhugas ngayon,” sabi ng kapatid kong babae. “Oo na, sige na. Ako na nga.” sabi ko na may konting galit. Minsan kasi kung sino ang mahuling kumain sa aming magkakapatid ay siyang maghuhugas pero kadalasan talaga ay mayroon kaming schedule na gawain tulad ng paghuhugas ng mga plato, pagpupunas ng lamesa, pagpapakain ng aso, at pagwawalis. So ayun, natapos na akong maghugas ng mga plato at dumiretso muna ako sa sala para manood. Nandoon silang lahat at tuwang-tuwa na nanonod ng Wiltime Bigtime. Mga bata kasi ang kontestants doon at totoo namang nakakatuwa yung mga pinaggagawa nila sa show. Pagkatapos nun ay umakyat na ako sa kwarto ko. Nag-lock ako ng pinto at saka ko binuksan yung laptop ko. Inopen ko yung fb account ko pero mabilis akong nabored dahil wala namang bagong notifications. Binuksan ko rin yung ymail ko, gmail, twitter, at youtube accounts ko pero walang gaanong bago na updates. Mga alas-diyes na yata ng gabi nun nung maisipan kong makipagchat sa person.com. Sa site kasi na yon, Marami kang makakachat doon na mga tripper na nagsshow para sa load o kaya pera. Minsan makikipagmeet pa at sabay sex na, tapos yung iba naman sinasabi na masahista daw sila tapos may extrang bayad kapag syempre may extra service, at Marami pang iba. Nagsshow din kasi ako minsan doon pero never pa akong nakipagmeet at nakipagsex ng live. Inopen ko yung account ko, nagbukas ng webcam at saka naghubad. Naka spongebob na boxers lang ako at itim na brief. Hindi naman sa pagmamayabang ay medyo maganda katawan ko, walang abs pero wala ring tabs. Hindi rin ako nagpapakita ng mukha sa cam. Nagsearch ako ng mga pwede kong makachat na mga babae at sa lalake. May namukaan ako doon sa cam, isang lalaki, maputi, at hindi kita yung mukha niya. Nakasandong puti siya at nakabrief na puti rin. Namukaan ko kasi yung kwarto niya tsaka yung mga dekorasyon sa likod nung guy. Alam kong kwarto yun ni Kevin dahil madalas ako sa kanila dati nung nandun pa si Kevin. Inopen ko yung cam niya at ni-message ko siya. Ang pangalan pa nga niya doon ay Martian, tapos yung parang status niya eh, “Eat’s Showtime.” Sabi ko sa message ko sa kanya, “hello po?” Ngunit matagal siyang hindi sumagot dahil ang dami niyang viewers na umabot sa mga 70, marahil ay ine-entertain niya yung iba doon. Eh ako nung mga oras na iyon ay nasa 40 lang ang mga viewers ko. Marami rin nagme-message sakin at pm pero hindi ko muna sinasagot dahil hinihintay kong sumagot si Martian. After 5 mins, sumagot na siya at eto ang naging usapan namin:

Martian: asl?
Ako: 21, m, Bulacan
(naging interesado yata siya sa akin dahil taga Bulacan ako tsaka ni-view niya na rin yung cam ko, so two-way video chat kami.)
Martian: san ka sa Bulacan? Nasa San Rafaek ako ngayon eh pero taga Caloocan talaga ako.
Ako: secret, san ka ba sa San Rafael?
Martian: malapit sa may palengke
(nagulat ako at nasabi ko sa sarili ko na baka kilala ko itong tao na ito, kaya kinabahan ako)
Ako: dito rin actually sa san Rafael eh, sa may palengke malapit. Baka kaya magkakilala tayo?
Martian: ha? Hindi mangyayari yun dahil ilang araw palang akong nandito.
Ako: ah ganun ba? Gusto mo mag private tayong dalawa?
Martian: ok lang sa akin
(nag private nga kaming dalawa as in one-on-one lang kami)
Ako: pwede ba makita face mo?
Martian: ayoko kaw muna
Ako: ngek, cge na nga
(nagpakita na ako ng mukha sa cam)
Martian: diba ikaw si Francis?
Ako: oo bakit? Kilala mo ako? Sabagay medyo kilala talaga ako dito. haha
Martian: bakla ka ba?
Ako: bi lang
Martian: ganun din yun eh, BAKLA
Ako: grabe naman, kelangan talaga naka-all caps?
Martian: haha sabi ko na nga ba eh, nung makita palang kita kanina at saka yung mga hawak mo sa kamay ko, alam kong bakla ka.
(napa-isip ako kung sino siya at ang unang pumasok sa isip ko ay si Marvin)
Ako: Marvin? Ikaw ba yan?
Martian: yes ako nga.
(nagulat ako at nanlamig dahil siya pala yung ka-chat ko)
Ako: ha loko ka ha, wala sa itsura mo kanina na nakikipagchat ka pala dito
Martian: ganun talaga
Ako: eh bakit andito ka sa site na to?
Martian: dito kasi nagpaparaos kapag dinadalaw ako ng libog. haha
Ako: malibog ka palang loko ka
Martian: kaw din naman eh, ano ginagawa mo sa site na to?
Ako: ganun din, naghahanap ng mga ka-chat
Martian: girls or boys?
Ako: both haha
Martian: langya ka, hanap mo siguro mga sandatang mahahaba at matitigas? Noh?
(kinabahan ako dahil baka malaman narin nila Tito at Tita)
Ako: loko ka, hindi naman masyado. Wag mong sasabihin kila Tito at Tita at lalong wag mong ipagkakalat
Martian: eh depende yan, kung pagbibigyan mo ako at susundin lahat ng papagawa ko sayo
Ako: ok cge, basta ba masasarapan ako sa mga ipapagawa mo eh
Martian: haha tangina mo, bakla ka nga talaga
Ako: hindi naman ako gaano halata pag nasa labas na ng bahay. haha
Martian: ok cge, ganito sumayaw ka sa harap ng cam, yung malaswa ha.
(tumayo ako sa harap ng cam tsaka sumayaw ng sexy dance. Gumiling-giling na parang macho dancer sa club. Hinimas himas ko yung dibdib ko, pababa sa tiyan, at hanggang sa aking ari. Unti-unti kong hinubad yung boxers ko at nagpatuloy sa paghimas ng alaga ko.)
Ako: ikaw naman, salitan tayo
(ganun din ginawa niya, tumayo siya at saka naghubad ng sando. Pinunit niya ito ng pwersahan at saka sumayaw sayaw ng sexy dance. Makikita mo sa katawan niya na nag-ggym siya kasi may abs siya tsaka malaki talaga katawan niya. Ang sarap niyang panuorin habang sumasayaw. Nilapit niya yung ari niya sa cam na parang gustong ipahiwatig na dilaan ko daw at himasin. Hindi na ako nagpatumpik-tumpik pa, inilapit ko sa cam yung mukha ko at saka ko ginawa ang paghalik ko sa ari niya. May mga times pa nga na umuungol ako sa sarap at pati siya. Feel na feel namin ang nangyayari sa amin. Hindi nagtagal ay inilabas na niya yung alaga niyang kanina pa gustong kumawala sa masikip niyang brief. Totoo ngang malaki at mataba ito, may kakapalan din ang bulbol niya sa ari. Shet ang sarap, gusto ko sanang tikman iyon pero anung magagawa ko eh nasa cam lang kami. Jinakol niya ito ng dahan-dahan habang nakaupo. Hindi narin ako makapagpigil at inilabas ko narin ang alaga ko. Medyo may kalakihan din naman ito at may konting buhok. Gigil na gigil na ako at parang gusto ko ng magpalabas.)
Martian: laki naman niyan
Ako: sayo nga jan eh , mukang yummy at delicious yang sayo
Martian: haha tangina mo may nalalaman ka pang ganyan
Ako: syempre naman, sana mangyari satin ito ng personal
Martian: gusto mo talaga? Diba first time mo if ever?
Ako: oo eh, gusto kong ikaw maka-una sa akin haha I love you
Martian: haha loko ka talaga
Ako: yaan mo, kung gusto may paraan, kung ayaw may dahilan
Martian: eh pano nga?
Ako: bukas sa inyo? Punta naman ako jan sa inyo eh
Martian: baka mahuli tayo nila Tito.
Ako: bahala na nga bukas
Martian: ok cge, jakol na tayo
Ako: sige pero bago yan kiss mo muna ako sa cam, lips to lips
(pumayag naman at nag lips to lips kami sa cam)
Martian: ok na?
Ako: cge jakol na tayo
(nagsimula na kaming magjakol, pareho kaming nakaupo at nakabukaka. Umuungol din kaming pareho habang pabilis ng pabilis ang pagjakol namin. Nauna siyang magpalabas)
Martian: Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, aaaaahhh, aaaaahhhhh, aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Para sayo yan, one week na akong hindi nagjajakol eh
(nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagjakol ko sa tite ko, hanggang sa manigas na yung mga binti ko at napapa-angat na ako sabay sigay ng ayan na, aaaaahhhhh, pumulandit sa tiyan ko yung tamod ko)
Ako: grabe ang sarap ng feeling
Martian: mas masasarapan ka pa kapag magkasama na tayo sa kama
Ako: haha loko ka, pero sana nga mangyari yun
(nagpahinga muna kami ng kaunti tsaka nagpaalam na siya)
Martian: oh pano na? cge na kita nalang tayo bukas
Ako: oo cge punta kami jan bukas

Nag-out na kami pareho at nagpunta muna ako sa CR bago matulog. Naka-lock naman yung pinto ko kaya natulog ako ng hubo’t hubad. Hanggang dito muna yung istorya ko, medyo mahaba na kasi eh. Abangan niyo kung paano namin nagawan ng paraan ni Marvin na makapagsex sa kwarto niya kinabukasan.

Itutuloy….

By: Carlito

Hi ako nga pla c carlito 15y/o at naganap itong 2nay kong storya noong 3rd year h.s ako ngaun ay 4th year n aq .

i will describe my personality 1st , matangkad , tan ang balat , matalino cguro aq kc nsa science class aq ng skul namin . msasabi ko ring gwapo aq kc contestant aq sa JS namin nung 3rd year at ako ang nanalo bilang prom king . im a perfect person sa lbas peo ndi sa loob dahil attracted ako sa same sex .

c jenner , ka age ko at clasm8 ko , gwapo din cya kc cya lagi ang klaban ko sa pwestong escort ng section namin . lalaking lalake c jenner . ndi ko pa cya type nung una peo dahil sa GM natamaan ako sa gwapuhan nya .

ako: ( nagGM ) ateneo kba ?????
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bkit?.
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kc ang sarap mo pasukan !!
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mejo verde ang meaning kaya cguro c jenner lng ang nagreplay .


j : haha , astig ! kakapanigas !
ako : haha , just a txt lng yan !
j : haha . my tatanung ako sau .
ako : anu?
j : bekss kba?
ako : hah! bliw kba? ako?
j : haha sori kung natanung ko ah ang lambot mo kc .
ako : haha , lgi amn my breed kc akong tao . haha .
j : I LOVE YOU !
ako: I LOVE YOU ? bkit?
j : wala lng .
ako : anun gusto mung ireplay ko dito ?
j : kw anu b gusto mo ?
ako : hmmm I LOVE YOU TOO .
j : so tau n ?
ako : di ah !
j : haixt .
ako : geh nyt 2m nlang sa rum .
j : geh geh . nyt nyt .

at na2log n ako , kinabukasan sa rum namin ndi kmi nagpapansinan . at sa loob ng 2 buwan ganon ang set up namin hnggang isang gbi .

j : pzzztt panget .
ako : ow ? bkit pogi ?
j : wala lng .
ako : bliw?
j : anong ginagawa mo ?
ako : nag aaral .
j : huh ? ang sipag mo tlaga ! kaya mahal kta ee .
ako : jenner my sasabhin ako sau .
j : ano ?
ako : atin lng dalawa !
j : uo ako pa !
ako : ee kc . . . . .
j : anu nga !
ako : mahal n kta !
j : hah ! cgurado k ?
ako : uo , oi wag mo pagsabi ah !
j : mayang 10pm sunduin kta dyan sa inyo !
ako : bkit ?
j : bzta !
ako : oh cge peo mag ingat k ah !
j : sbi moy ! I LOVE YOU !
ako : I LOVE YOU TOO .

nang mag10 wala p cya , kaya intay intay lng ako. maya maya andyan n cya .

ako : wag k maingay ! bka may mgisng ! san b tau pu2nta?
j : samin !
ako : bkit ?
j : bsta !

sumakay n kmi sa motor nya at pinayakap nya ako sa knya pra safe dw .

nang dumating kmi sa knila . walang tao nasa bhay dw ng lola nya ung mama at mga kpatid nya . sa kwarto nya kmi dumeretso . doon nanuod kmi ng porn videos ng mga bakla dinownload dw nya para skin . kaya kiniss ko cya sa pisnge . bigla nya akong hinawakan sa mukha at tinitigan nya ako . ang lagkit ng tingin nya . bigla nya akong hinalikan sa lips , laplapan kmi . soooooobrang sarap! heaven ! unti unti ko cyang hinubran . at hinubran nya rrin ako . pinahiga nya ako at dinilaan nya ang dede ko pakiramdam ko babae ako .

binulungan nya ako , "chupain mo n ako plzz . " kya inunti unti ko cya hnggang mkarating ako sa titi nya . WAGAS sa tigas parang bkal . itlog muna nya ang inuna ko , aaaaaaahhhhhhhh uuuuuuuhhhhhh , yan lng naririnig ko sa knya kaya mas ginalingan ko pa . isinunod ko ay ang tite nya at mas lumakas ungol nya . mga 3mins cguro akong baba taas sa titi ni jenner . "masikip pba 2 ?" sbay hipo nya sa pwet ko . "uo bkit ? gusto mo ?" "pwede ?" "uo amn bstat dahan dahanin mo"

dinilaan ni jenner ang butas ng pwet ko . aaaaaaaaahhhhh , uuuuuuhhhhhhhh . cge pa aaaahhhhhhhhh , uuuuuuhhhhh . wla akong nsabing iba sa sobrang sarap . maya mya my pumapasok ng msakit , titi n ni jenner , hoooooo ang sakit sobra . peo hbng 2matagal sumasarap .

j : akin lng 2 ah .
ako : sbi moy , bsta b linggo linggo ang suplay ng gatas ee .
j : hooooooo ang sarap tlaga !
ako : aaaaaaaahhhhhhh
j : malapit n ako
ako : cge iputok mo , buntisin mo ko . !!!!
j : aahhhhhhhh aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaahhhhh , uuuuuuuhhhhhh .
ako . uuuummmmmmm ssssssaaaarrrraaappp .

nahiga na kmi at sa dib dib nya ako na2log ....
hoooooo babaeng babae tlaga ako nung araw n yon .

sa ngaun dedmahan n kami sa skul , ndi ko n rin cya clzm8 kc bumaba average nya kaya natanggal cya sa section namin .

yun lng po , abangan nyo ung susunod .
iwan kau ng comments ah para maitama ko ung mali sa pagkukwento ko .

By: Keen

Hi ako nga pala si keen(di tunay na pangalan) 14 yrs old at 2nd year high school at hindi bi
nagsimula ang aking istorya noong 1st grading kami ng aking mga classmate. Every recess siyempre nag kakaröon kami ng pagbibiruan with my boy classmates, siyempre dahil sa tunay kaming lalaki nagkikilitian kmi ng nipple o naghahawakan, kayat minsan dahil wala kaming teacher ay tinawag ako ni anthony(d rin tunay)gwapo siya army cut ang buhok at 5'6) na pumunta kami sa gym/auditorium ng school siyemre dadalawa lang kami dahil lahat ng mga student ay naglalaro sa mga room's nila. Usapan namin
me: oh anu ginagawa natin rito sex?! Ha ha ha
tanong kong pabiro
anthony: pwede kung gusto mo!
Pabiro niya ring sagot
me: anu kasi aalis na ako!
anthony: ipapahard k ang nipple ko sa iyo kasi sabi ng iba tuwing nagbibiruan kyo o touching nipples ay unti unting nagiging hard ang nipples nila eh
nagulat ako pero kaibigan ko naman ay kailangan kong sundin
me:ganun ba ilabas mo na!
At nag hubad siya nakita ko ang katawan niya napakinis at ang nipple niyang pambatang pambata (dahil nga pag hinahawakan ko ang nipples ng ibang classmates ko ay may damit) at sabi niyang simulan ko na at kinurot ko ang nipples niya nakiliti siya pero tiniis niya nilaro ko ng nila sa gilid ng pinaka utong pinaikot k ang daliri k hanggang sa hard na hard na at sabi niya
anthony: dba tunay kitang kaibigan?
Me: oo bakit?
Anthony: sige pwede bang maki pag sex sayo
me:ha?! SEX! D pwede
anthony : sige na di tunay kitang kaibigan?
Me: sige na nga doon sa aming bahay wala parent ko
anthony: sige sa weekends ah?
Me:oo na
kinakabahan ako sa sinabi nya at nalibogan rin
dumating n siya at sabi start na. Naghubaran kming dalawa ng damit at pantalon ang natira na lang ay ang underwear at sabi niyang 'lick my nip' at ginawa ko at nilaro k ang kabila libog na libog ako at sabi niya magpababa ako at ginawa ko iyon hanggang sa mahawakan ko ang tigas na tigas nya burat . Sabi niya ilabas ko raw at salsalin ko at ginawa k 'diyos k ang laki' 6 inches sinalsal k ito at pagkatapos ay sabi niyang isubo ko ito at sinubo k nga ang laki halos di ko masubo
at tinaas baba k ang ulo ko at hanggang sa sumigaw siyang ahh! May mainit na maalat sa aking lalamunan dinura at sinuka ko itong lahat at sabi niya hubarin k raw ang brief ko at ginawa ko hinaplos niya ang katawan ko at isinubo ang 6 inch rin na burat ko < Sarap pala > tinuloy niya iyon hanggan napasigaw rin ako sa sarap ahh at may kumatok( naku sinu kaya iyon)

ITUTULOY

By: Anonymous

CHAPTER ONE
It was like I was drinking pure desire. His knees were over my shoulders, and my mouth was at his neck. I wanted more of it, more and more.

I was all the way inside. I pumped as hard as the small confines would allow. I had transcended all human limits of pleasure into something else.

Faster and faster, more and more. Finally, with an explosion, my semen poured into him.

*****

Oh crap. My eyes opened. Sweat poured down my forehead, and my heart was racing. I felt wetness around my erection. Man, I had just had the most intense wet dream of my life. I hadn't had a wet dream in years.

I had to get cleaned up. I looked across the room. Tommy, my college roommate, looked to be asleep; he was facing the wall and breathing deeply.

I reached down and felt around my crotch. It was unmistakable; the semen had soaked through my pajamas. At least my sheets seemed clean. I needed to get myself cleaned up.

I carefully got out of bed and grabbed a change of underwear and some new PJs. Tommy was a light sleeper so I couldn't get cleaned up in here. I'd have to go to the bathroom down the hall.
The hallway was dark and deserted. With a washcloth I cleaned myself up in the bathroom, stripping to the nude.

I looked at myself in the mirror. What is wrong with you that you have wet dreams at eighteen? I could answer that myself. I was 18, almost 19, and still a virgin. My reproductive system must have needed to release some pent up frustration.

I knew that if I really wanted to, I could find some girl who'd let me use her body. I was a skinny kid who loathed sports and athletics, but my face was handsome. My straight black hair topped a mug with a good complexion and a nice smile. I had really great teeth, girls used to tell me in high school. Some of them took an interest in me and tried to seduce me, but I always shied away from them. I had been raised in a strict Catholic family, and at first I thought I was just being virtuous. I was proud of myself that I desired abstinence instead of sex with girls.

But by the end of high school, I realized what I really wanted. It came in the form of a male gym teacher. Although PE was my least favorite subject, it was almost palatable when he was teaching. Sometimes when we were warming up, I would just stare at him and he led the stretches in front of me. And then I realized with horror what I was.

There was an openly gay guy at my school, a total fairy really. People derided him behind his back and even a little to his face. If I had to go through that I thought I'd kill myself from all the ridicule. I mean, people make fun of me enough without having to add the gay thing on as well. I made a vow never to indulge in my homosexual tendencies. I knew if I did, I'd get caught anyway, and then my social life would be dead on arrival.

Now, standing in the bathroom, I realized how frustrating that decision had made my life. My libido was stronger than ever, and it would just keep getting worse.

I started to get turned on again just looking at my naked body in the mirror. Disgusted at myself, I dressed quickly in my clean clothes, an went back to my room.

Tommy had turned over in bed, but his eyes were still shut. I stashed my dirty clothes at the bottom of my hamper, and got back in bed.

High school had been a bad time for me. Skinny, smart, and shy, I had been teased plenty of times. I didn't have many friends, I was a loner.

My home life was also stifling. My parents were always so strict. They were Venezuelan immigrants. To them, only the academic success of their children proved their status as Americans. I had two sisters, one older that always bossed me around, and one younger that was always incessantly annoying.

I spent most of my free time holed up in my bedroom reading novels. I loved science fiction and fantasy novels because they, more than anything, offered me escape from my own dreary life. My room became filled with dusty stacks of these novels. They were the only thing that made my depressing life palatable. I lived vicariously through the heroes of those stories, going on imaginary adventures in my head instead of living my own life.

At the end of high school, my grades were great and so were my SAT scores. I had gotten into MIT, and that's where I've been since the fall. I was dreading going to college, especially knowing that I would no longer have my own space. But I also hoped to turn a new leaf socially and make some friends.

But when I got there, everyone seemed so smart and intimidating. I knew I was just as book smart as they were, but on a social level I couldn't keep up. I dreaded having conversations with new people, although looking back, I didn't do anything to be ashamed of in front of them. When student would try to initiate me into their social groups, I always felt like I was the bottom rung. I was the one who they teased constantly for being naive. I would rather be a loner than be at the butt of everyone's jokes. So I went back to my old habits; avoiding the other students, and spending all my time either studying or reading.

Really the only one who I had a sustained relationship with was my roommate Tommy. The first time I walked into our room with my parents and all my luggage in tow, he was there, already unpacked. He was putting up posters of supermodels on his wall, wearing athletic shorts and a T-shirt that said Abercrombie & Fitch on it. I later learned that he bought most of his clothes from that store. He was obviously an athlete; he had a great body, all muscle, and tan skin too. His hair was blonde and shaggy, and as he turned to smile at us as we walked in, I noticed his face was good looking.

He was really great with my parents, convincing them that we would be fast friends and that he would keep me out of trouble. They loved him of course, and left less worried about me than they had been all summer.

But as soon as they were gone, I realized that the Tommy my parents had met was not the real Tommy. The real Tommy was arrogant and cocky, always bragging about his exploits in soccer or with women. He would always challenge me in really stupid ways, betting me he could beat me in an arm wrestling match, or betting he could eat twice as much pizza as me. Every time he did, I would agree with him, and drop the issue without actually playing the game. I think he was always disappointed.

The first couple of weeks he really seemed to take me under his wing. He introduced me to all the friends he was making, bought books with me, and even got me drunk for the first time. He laughed at every word I slurred.

I quickly realized I was developing a crush on my roommate. I wanted to be around him as much as I could. I felt like every time he looked at me and smiled that great smile of his, I was receiving a prize beyond measure. Feeling lost and frustrated, I reminded myself that Tommy wasn't even my type. I was attracted more to older men, not OLD men, just not men who were practically boys. But that didn't keep me from falling hard for Tommy anyway.

Soon, the novelty of being around me must have worn off for him. As the weeks went on, he stopped trying to include me in his social life, and just interacted with me when we were both at home. I tended to be there way more than he was. He was always out partying, and I was always in studying. A lot of times he would come home with girls and kick me out. I would go sleep in the common room where I would always get woken up by other students coming and going.

By the time our first finals came, I was well prepared but Tommy was a total wreck. He was smart, but he hadn't studied at all and skipped a lot of class. Of course he did badly.

When we came back from our Christmas break, he told me he was on academic probation. We were in a lot of the same classes, so he asked me if I could help him out, telling me that I was so much smarter than he was. I agreed to help, and we began studying together.

With him sitting across from me in the study lounge, I found my eyes
wandering away from the books and onto him. Ever since the first day we moved in together, I had had this problem. I was socially awkward enough without having to room with a guy that had such a physical effect on me.

He wasn't modest about changing in front of me. He would walk to and from the shower with just a towel around his waist, and would always dress in our room. At first, I would always avert my eyes when he did this, so he wouldn't think I wanted to see him naked. But as time went on, if I knew he wasn't facing me, I looked at him. His bare, hairless, muscular butt was always a favorite sight of mine.

After a couple sessions in the library, he insisted that we start studying in our room. I guess the library was just too stifling quiet for him. Sometimes, he would just be in his athletic shorts as he studied on his bed. With his eyes locked in his book, I would sneak more glances at him. His upper body was muscular, although not exactly toned. Whatever it was, it was still much more attractive than my skinny body, I thought. And I could definitely see the outline of his dick in his shorts, always running down his left leg. I figured he must not have worn any underwear under them, which was fine by me.

After we started studying together, he started doing better in school, and I started slipping. A lot of times I was so distracted when we studied together that I had to go back and relearn everything later. It really started to cut into my novel reading time.

But maybe it was worth it.

*****

"Let me see your answers."

There was an exam in Calculus the next day and the professor had handed out a study guide last week. I had solved all the sample problems on my copy. In typical Tommy fashion, he had been to a string of parties instead of studying.

"You should solve them on your own or else you won't know how to solve them on the test."

He shook his head. "I don't need to solve them myself. If I look at your answers and I'll remember them."

"No, Tommy, you should have thought of that--"

He jumped off his bed and came over to mine, where I was reading my latest novel in my PJs. Like usual, he was in his athletic shorts.

"Come on, I'll wrestle you for it," he said, pushing me a little with his hand.

I put my book down. "I'm not going to wrestle you."

"What, you scared, Rick? Let's see what you got. I win, you give me your answers. You win, I'll buy you a bunch of new Sci-fi books."

"No, it's stupid."

It was like talking to a deaf man. He grabbed me around the neck in a choke hold and dragged me off the bed. I tried to yell, but found myself unable to speak. I tried to struggle, pulling him onto the floor and trying to twist around before he put his legs around my back and squeezed me in a vice hold.

"Do you give?" he asked.

I couldn't speak, but nodded vigorously.

He let me go. I coughed and got on my hands and knees as he went over to my desk.

"I win," he said. "You wrestle like shit."

I got up as he retrieved my answers and started studying them. Feeling completely defeated and unable to argue, I never complained.

The next morning, I woke up at 6:45 like usual. Calculus started at 8:00. I went to take a shower. The showers were open, no stalls, but at this time there usually wasn't anybody in the bathroom to see me naked, which I preferred. When I got back Tommy still hadn't gotten up. Halfway through breakfast I decided to wake him. He usually slept as long as possible and then went to class without showering, if he went to class at all.

"Tommy! Get up!"

That was enough to rouse him. He looked at the clock. "Oh shit," he said, and was up, and running around the room frantically.

He dropped his shorts suddenly, too fast for me to avert my eyes, and I got a good eyeful of his soft penis. I turned away immediately. I didn't want him to see me looking.

After he threw on yesterday's clothes, we were off to class. The exam was a breeze, and I finished quickly, going back to the room. But it took Tommy a long time to finish, so I figured he must have been struggling.

I was right. Next week, when we got back our exams, he failed his. Now he was really nervous. If he did poorly in this class, he might be kicked out of school. He started studying with me again, and told me he wanted to start going to every class.

"When you do go, you just sleep through it," I said. "What's the point of that? If you're going to go, then listen."

"I'm always so damn tired. From now on, I'm waking up when you wake up."

So the next time I had to wake up early for Calculus, I woke him up too before I went off to the bathroom. I was washing my hair when he walked in, just his towel around his waist. He smiled at me as he discarded his towel. I looked away, hoping he'd take the showerhead that was the farthest away from my own, but he started up the showerhead to my left. What was he doing? When other guys came in to shower, they always gave people their space.

"I hate motherfuckin math. Always have."

I never had anyone initiate chit chat with me while we were both showering together. I wasn't sure of the etiquette, so I kept my eyes glued to the tile in front of me.

"You think maybe you went to the wrong university?" I asked in a sincere tone of voice, not condescending.

"No, cause I'm fucking good at math," he said.

After a bit he said, "That chick Stacey bought me a set of this fancy shampoo and shit, but I don't know. Do you think it smells too girlie?"

He was handing me a bottle of shampoo, which necessitated me turning to face him, getting a full view of his wet naked body. I took the shampoo, and smelled it.

"No. Smells fine."

I handed it back to him.

"Are you sure? I don't want to smell like a faggot."

Ugh. That word rang threw me with guilty insecurity. I shrugged. "I don't know, Tommy. I'm not the person to ask something like that."

I finished my shower and walked over to where my towel was to dry off. After that morning, he kept on waking up when I did and taking showers with me. I found it very disruptive. One time he came in, yawning and rubbing his eyes, his towel around his waist as usual. Only this time, I could see he had an erection. He was really tenting the towel out.

He just whipped the towel off, and laughed at himself. "I hate morning hardons," he said, tugging his as if emphasizing his point. He went over to the urinal and started to relieve himself. I couldn't believe he was being such an exhibitionist in front of me.

By the time he started up the shower next to my own, he was soft again. But the memory of his erection was still burned into my mind. It was the first one I had ever seen, besides my own of course.

*****

One Saturday night, not long after that, he was out at some party and I was in the room alone, reading a book in bed. At around eleven he came in the room, reeking of beer and cigarettes.

"Wassup, man?" he said.

"Just reading," I said.

He shut the door and started getting ready for bed, kicking his shoes off and stripping out of his shirt. He took his jeans off and then his boxers, getting into his favorite athletic shorts.

He jumped on his bed, and pulled a CD out of his pocket. "Terrance gave me some sick shit. Check it out."

Fumbling around with his computer, he stuck the disk into his drive, but nothing happened.

"What the fuck?" he said. "Why the fuck isn't it working?"

"Is it a CD?" I asked.

"No, a DVD."

"Tommy, your computer doesn't have a DVD drive, remember?"

"Oh yeah."

With that, he jumped off his bed, took the disk out of his computer, walked over to my desk, and stuck the DVD in my computer. A movie started in which a woman with huge breasts was going to a fake-looking museum set

"Scoot over," he said, jumping on my bed. The way my desk was situated, my monitor was hard to see from his bed. I did as he requested and sat sideways on my bed, with him sitting beside me. The woman with the big breasts, meanwhile, fell in love with a very fake looking statue of a nude male. I knew right then what I was watching.

"Is this porn?" I asked.

"Damn right."

"I've never seen one before," I said.

"Holy shit, are you serious?"

"Yeah."

"Well, enjoy it then," he said, leaning back.

After the museum closed, the woman snuck back in. She started giving fellatio to the well endowed statue, and it came to life. She seemed mighty pleased.

Since Tommy was between me and the monitor, I could look at him without him seeing me. He was starting to get erect, his penis pulling up the left leg of his shorts. Seeing that was enough to get an erection of my own. The woman was naked now and pleasuring herself.

"Oh shit look at that cunt," said Tommy.

I was looking instead at his hand grasping his erection through his shorts. He started to rub himself slowly through the fabric.

"Shit, Rick, I gotta get off."

He sat up, putting his weight on his feet, and pulled his shorts down to his knees. His erection sprang out of those shorts and hit his belly. With his eyes on the screen, he started to stroke himself. I couldn't believe this. He was sitting right up against me.

He looked over at me then. "Aren't you going to get off too?" he asked.

"No thanks."

"Come on, you're tenting out your pants there. Obviously you want to."

It's true, that's exactly what I wanted to do. He smiled at me. "We're buddies, right? Can't let a buddy jack off alone." I relented, and pulled my PJ's down. He looked at my erection, and smiled as my hand made contact with it before he looked back at the screen. I didn't get it. Was he making a pass at me? It seemed like he was. It felt great to jack off like this while watching him doing likewise, but I wanted more than anything to touch him. He was the one who wanted us to jack off together. He probably wanted me to take the next step.

Feeling bolder than ever, and being driven by lust alone, I let my free hand wander over to him. While he was looking at the woman getting penetrated, I had my hand a couple of inches over his thigh. I put my hand down, and grabbed hold of his erection. He turned around to look at me. His look was anything but friendly.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

My hand flew back onto my side. I wanted to take the action back as well. It was too late. He jumped off my bed, pulling his shorts up. I pulled my pants up too.

"What the fuck was that, jackass?" I didn't say anything. He looked ready to kick the shit out of me.

"Tell me something and I want a straight answer. Are you fucking queer, man?"

My silence was answer enough.

He laughed. "I can't believe it. A fucking queer as my roommate. To think I trusted you! And you just tried to molest me, you sick, perverted bastard!" He punched me in the cheek then. The blow was a numbing blast.

When I recovered, he was out the door. I heard him shouting in the hall, "Rick's a fag, he just tried to molest me!"

I heard him go into the common room and start yelling. Other people seeme to respond in hushed whispers. I couldn't stay there and suffer the humiliation. I had to go. I threw on my clothes, and packed my backpack full of clothes and toiletries. And then I was out of there, avoiding the common room, feeling like absolute crap.

In a few minutes I was in a bus going downtown. I sat in the back, where nobody could see me. And I started to cry. What was I going to do now? Go home? What would I tell my family? But I couldn't go back. I couldn't face Tommy again, or any of the rest of them. Even if he requested a change of roommates, it would take at least a week to move. I didn't want to skip my classes, but I had no choice. Tommy was in all my classes anyway. No, I wasn't going back.

I regained my composure and got off at the bus station. I decided to buy a ticket south. There was a bus leaving to Baltimore in a few minutes. My folks lived in Atlanta; it was in the right direction. I bought a ticket and was on my way.

I slept through most of the trip. When I wasn't asleep, I was thinking how stupid I was; how this was the most impulsive thing I had ever done in my life.

*****

The Baltimore bus station was full of activity at lunchtime the next day. I was trying to buy a ticket south to Charlotte but I didn't have enough cash.

"Can't I pay with my Credit Card?" I asked.

"No, cash only," said the cashier. "Our ATM's broken, but there's an ATM a few blocks down the street."

So, with my backpack on, I walked the long distance to the ATM machine and withdrew one hundred dollars, the full extant of my account. At school, there wasn't much I needed cash for. Now, I was hoping I could get home with what I got.

I looked around. Across the street from me was a coffee shop. I felt drawn to it; I hadn't eaten all day. And by the looks of it, it wasn't too expensive, which made it even more attractive.

As it was lunchtime, there were a fair amount of customers eating. The hostess didn't smile at me when I walked in.

"One, please," I said.

"Do you mind sitting at the bar or do you want a table?"

I wanted a table, but the way she asked, it made me feel like I would be a jerk taking up a table with just one of me. "The bar is fine."

Calling it a bar was a little misleading, since they didn't serve any alcohol there. There were a few other people sitting on stools at the counter, but she led me to a spot that didn't have anyone sitting next to it. As I walked towards the bar, I noticed a man sitting in a far booth alone who seemed to be tracking me with his eyes. He was real good looking in a masculine sort of way.

I sat down and picked up my menu. As I started to check out the breakfast selection, I got a feeling like that guy was still looking at me. I turned my head to see.

He was still staring right at me. Our eyes locked for a moment, startling me. He nonchalantly looked away out the window, and I returned my attention to the menu.

I ordered pancakes because they were the best value. But even after my food was in front of me, I was still getting that weird feeling of being watched. I purposefully dropped my napkin on the floor, and turned to pick it up. My eyes didn't linger, but I could tell the guy was still looking at me.

What did he want? I looked around the place. Everyone was white. Both my parents are Venezuelan. Could it be that the guy was racist? Had I stepped into a segregationist, white only coffee shop?

That didn't make any sense. Even though both my parents are Venezuelan, my mom only married my dad when she was pregnant with me. He's not my blood father, although he's the only father I ever knew. My real father was a white soldier my mom had married in Venezuela. He took her back to Atlanta with him. A few years later, after my older sister was born and I was on the way, he died of cancer. My mom inherited everything, and soon married an old flame from back home, effectively cutting the ties she had to my real father's sparse family. My younger sister was really only my half sister. She was dark, but me, I had light skin. I could easily pass for white if I wanted to, and had never been the target of racism before.

I finished my meal quickly and started to pay when someone sat in the empty seat to my left. Turning slightly, I was shocked to see it was the creepy guy. He looked straight ahead, and pushed his coffee cup towards the waitress behind the counter.

"Another cup, please, Jo," he said.

She poured him a refill. He looked to be about forty, maybe a little younger. He was probably about 5'11", but thick. He wore a pair of jeans and a white wifebeater, and I could tell by his big shoulders and arms that he was strong and fit. He was mostly bald, it seemed, and the hair on the side of his head was cut so short that I couldn't even tell what color it was. He had a strong chin covered with stubble, a broad, hooked nose like a boxer that had been in too many fights, and lips that stayed closed when he smiled at the waitress. He was definitely intimidating.

"I'd like to pay," I told the waitress. "I need change."

She took my twenty away. I pretended like something had caught my interest to the right, facing away from him.

"So what's your deal? Are you for real?" he said softly. His voice was a deep rumble.

"Huh? Are you talking to me?" I asked, not sure if he was or not.

"Yeah, I'm talkin to you. Whatcha gonna do about it?" He must have taken my question the wrong way. "Did you follow me in here? You gonna do me in front of all these bystanders?"

I didn't know what he was going on about. "Look, I think you have me mistaken for someone else. I don't want any problem with you, please." My voice was shaking.

The waitress was returning with my change. As soon as I had it, I jumped off the stool, and walked quickly towards the door.

I rushed back down the street towards the bus station, wondering what that conversation was all about and ready to get out of Baltimore for good.

A bit later, I heard a motorcycle on the street behind me. As it got closer, I turned to look. There was a man driving towards me on a large black Harley. He had on a black leather jacket on and a black helmet. But then I noticed that he was wearing blue jeans, and his open jack revealed a wifebeater underneath.

I froze. He had a gun in his right hand. He started to point it at me as he approached. Nobody else was in sight to help me.

I ran into an alley to my right as fast as I could, but he turned in behind me, and overtook me. He stopped his bike and jumped off, pointing the gun at my head.

"Freeze, motherfucker," he said.

"What do you want from me?" I started reaching for my wallet.

"Hands up or I'll shoot!" he screamed.

I stuck my hands in the air. "Take my money, I have a hundred dollars. No wait, now I have more like ninety."

"I don't want your fucking money, kid," he said.

I was shaking, trembling all over. This was the worst 24 hours of my life.

"You're really scared, aren't you?" he asked.

I didn't respond.

"Who are you? What's your name?"

"Rick--" I hesitated before saying my last name. It would give away my Hispanic roots.

"Where you from Rick?"

"Atlanta."

"How old are you?"

"Just 18. I'm a college student. MIT. I'm going home for a break." I figured the more he knew about me, the less likely he was to shoot me.

"Uh huh. What do you know about combat?" What the hell was he talking about? "Combat?"

"Yeah. You a fighter, Rick?"

"No. I've never been in a fight my whole life."

Then he seemed to sit there for a second, just thinking. The gun was still pointed at me. "If I shot you right now, would you be able to dodge the bullet?"

"What? No!"

"Should we try it just to be sure?" My eyes misted up. "No, please don't."

He lowered his gun. "You're coming with me. You try any shit, and I'll
kill your ass on the freeway, you got that?" I nodded, wanting anything but to go with him. He pulled off his helmet and handed it to me.

"You'd better put this on," he said. "I don't have an extra one." I put it on, feeling a little safer afterwards. He jumped back on his bike. "Get on," he said.

I cautiously straddled the bike behind him. With a rumble, the bike took off out of the alley. I almost fell off.

"Hold the fuck on!" he shouted.

Since there was nothing else to grab onto but him, I put my arms around his waist, over the leather of his jacket.

"Where are we going?" I dared to ask.

"To Philly."

"Philadelphia? But that's to the north. I've already been that way."

"Too fucking bad, Philly is our one and only destination. Now shut up."

TO BE CONTINUED

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